Hey everyone, sorry been quiet on here over the last week or so, sadly things haven’t been easy for me AT ALL
My mum hasn’t been very well now on/off since mid July, & cause she has pulmonary fibrosis she put it down to a flare up of her symptoms & thought nothing anymore of it..
last Thursday during my Grandads funeral she was VERY unwell but somehow out of sheer determination proceeded with attending the funeral & wake staying till 6pm.. she was very shakey & hot all day & did say a few times to me all she wants to do is go home & lay down..
by last Friday she was no better worse intact so I rang her an ambulance & within 10mins they was outside my house!
Turns out she was admitted ASAP & has sepsis & pneumonia 😢
So she’s been in hospital a week today, & I’m at home just keeping my head above water, looking after my two boys & keeping our home ticking over..
They have her on three different kinds of antibiotics as of right now as they ain’t sure as to what the infection is or where it’s located, she is also having chest x rays & blood tests taken every few days to check her levels for infection
I’ve been allowed to see her which has massively put my mind at ease cause I really did think at one point I was sadly going to loose my mum 4weeks after my grandad & I wasn’t even sure if I would of been able to process that or handle it 💔
I think if that was to be the outcome it would break me.. period..
as of right now they haven’t given a date as to when they feel she can be discharged home so it’s just a waiting game & once they recieve her blood results back they will go from there..
I feel a mix of emotions, lonely ,sad, scared, scared for the future, anxious, missing my mum, missing my lovely grandad, & I don’t even know how I’m holding it all together.. I get through my days counting down the hrs till bedtime.. as I can’t wait to get in to bed each night with a cuppa & just simply switch off from the pressure/stress & responsibility of been a mummy.. it’s all very overwhelming lately.. but I’m still here, still holding up & making the best of a sad awful time the best I can 💕
Thankyou to all who have been nothing but so kind & lovely I do appreciate it honestly it means so much to me