I had my baby girl almost 11 weeks ago. We were discharged from the labour ward to be readmitted to our local MAFU for 3 weeks. The gas and air from labour left me feeling very disassociated, which soon gave way to a deep depression.
Fast forward to now: my mood has been steadily deteriorating for the last 3-4 weeks. Was really high for 3 weeks, with obsessional thoughts. The last couple of days, this has given way to depression and anxiety.
My psychologist is suggesting readmission to MAFU or respite care at home (basically a babysitter for a few hours here and there, as well as having a registered mental health nurse visit every couple of days- i think). I have till Wed to decide for next Monday's admissions. I'm really leaning towards going back into the unit, but it will be really hard on my baby (not being able to bedshare, moving 'home' monday-friday, changes in environment constantly).
I really don't know what to do. my perception of my daughter is really freaking me out (complete ambivalence most of the time), my moods and behaviour are terrifying, but my husbands not too keen on either options. we're trying to stabilise with meds and therapy but im still feeling so out of control!