Hi,
I’m a 23 year old heterosexual male. I’ve never been in a relationship. I have always been very introverted but when it comes to relationships I have been even more reserved.
I never really was interested in relationships in school or even much at University. It’s only more recently that I have begun to think that maybe I have been missing out.
Despite being in a situation where I am perhaps more open to a relationship for the past year or so, I have still barely tried to get into one as the thought of it seems to make me feel anxious and embarrassed for reasons I can’t really explain.
I’ve decided to post this now as I’ve recently started to try to make some progress on this (sort of) but haven’t got very far. One example was where I built up the courage to message a crush I have (literally just to say happy birthday) and had pretty severe anxiety and a sense of dread. I also haven’t messaged her since even though I’ve known her for about 5 years and would like to think we are at least friends. The other example is today I finally signed up for a dating app (which I have been avoiding doing) and even just installing it made me feel like something terrible was about to happen. It’s hard to explain but it’s almost like there’s a part of my brain that is just completely afraid and opposed to the idea of a romantic relationship.
Just wanted to get people thoughts on this please. I know there are people going through far worse than I am but just can’t find an explanation to what I am feeling. For most people relationships seem to be a pretty normal thing but for me it seems to be almost a completely alien concept. Maybe they are just not for me or I need to let it happen naturally.
It’s worth noting that I do seem to have some form of Social Anxiety which I have seen the doctor about but this seems to be a little different.
(Sorry for the long post)
I’m afraid
Don’t know what to do 
I don’t know what to do?
Relationships and depression.
Don’t know what to title this. Feeling helpless. 
