I’m scared

[anon99]

I’m on my way to the doctor appointment. But my blood results from the other office aren’t in yet and I’m so scared I’m gonna drop dead this is my first time going alone since all this anxiety has kicked in. I wanna cancel

[Hidden]

Hello

You were scared yesterday you were going to die and you are still here

It is a big thing going to the Doctors office on your own , take deep breaths you are going to be just fine

All this fear is feeding your anxiety , try thinking of this as a positive you are getting treatment and sorted out

Let us know how you get on , remember deep breaths , you will do this

Take Care x

[anon99 in reply to Hidden]

Ty. I know, I sound like a broken record.. I’m just scared something different will happen today, my mind says what if today is different. I want to bust into tears sitting in this waiting room. I hope I’ll be ok. I’m practicing deep breathing now. Do you ever get so anxious your whole body gets tingly and you feel like you’ll pass out seeing black spots?

[Hidden in reply to anon99]

I know I understand but honestly you won't die and you will get through this

Glad you are trying to breath through it , remember the times you have felt this way before and tel yourself nothing bad happened and neither will it this time

I have seen black spots , tingling , legs like jelly , feel I can't breath and will pass out and loads more , but it really is the anxiety creating these feelings

You are going to be fine , you are stronger than you think x

[EazyBee]

I used to have similar anxiety disorder. I remember the day when I did the blood tests for the first time , I was so scared , felt like fainting. I think it's best to have someone to go with maybe a partner/friend/sibling...

I always say to people that "all results can be scary". And I think it's our minds that scares us. We need to be in control of our minds.

[anon99 in reply to EazyBee]

It’s so much better when I don’t have to go alone because talking usually distracts me and calms my mind a teensy bit. Unfortunately with the coronavirus, the majority of offices in my town aren’t allowing any guest.

I really thought about that last part. “All results can be scary” yes gaining control of my mind is a very big goal of mine right now. It’s much easier said than done for some people. I wish I was the one who could snap my fingers and get er done. Ty for your reply.

[EazyBee in reply to anon99]

Yea it's true...it's easy said than done.

But we need to keep trying hey.

1 thing that I've noticed about anxiety is that , it starts with 1 thing , then it kinda grows and get triggered by a multiple of things ...then you end up feeling like you're getting crazy or losing yourself , you feel like you're lost in the middle of nowhere. When that thing striked me , I started feeling like I'm ambitiousless, dreamless, hopeless. I feel like it has wasted my time, cos I'd be sitting having fearful thoughts back n forth. And the sad part is that , when i try to talk to ppl abt it it's like they don't understand ....

So i think it's like we gotta find ourselves. It's like We lost ourselves/focus somewhere.. so we need to rewind the record n check that scratch n fix it.

We will make it. Just don't lose hope.

[anon99 in reply to EazyBee]

Yeah that’s me right now.. crying because I’m scared to take a shower but I really need one..

Ty. I appreciate your comment. I relate to it so well.

[EazyBee in reply to anon99]

Hi Anon99:

Cool , we will be fine.

Like I said that we need to find that missing scratch n fix it. It's like there's a missing puzzle u knw.