Today has been horrible

[anon99]

I’ve had bad anxiety attacks today.... I’m on my third one. The first one was in the shower, the second was just laying in bed. I was in the restroom when this one hit: I suddenly felt like I was going to barf all over the place and boom adrenaline- so I jumped and ran to my room and the feeling went away but now I hear my heartbeat in my ear, my chest keeps getting tight off and on, I keep burping, I get a warm feeling in my chest, and a cold feeling across my head, I’m chilly but my feet are so sweaty, I can’t stop rocking back and forth and everything looks unreal. 😟😔 I’m sick of this. I’m sick of feeling like I’m gonna die. I’m so sick and tired. I’m tired of being scared all the time. I’m just trying to rub my dog and hope these feelings leave me.

[Agora1]

dearest anon, this is not good for you or the baby. Does your midwife

realize how often you are getting these anxiety attacks? What does she

say? Every symptom you described is overwhelming anxiety taking over

every day now. Your subconscious mind keeps playing this negativity

over and over making you respond to any bodily stimuli with Adrenaline

surges.

You need someone who will work with quieting the fears down. Answering

your questions, reassuring you that you will be okay. Something more than

giving birth seems to be stressing you. Is it the Pandemic? Is it the fact that

you have to be alone during birthing? Is it about the care and help you will

need after the baby is born? Talking out your fears will help reduce the

stress which will in turn reduce the adrenaline in your body.

I wish I were there with you. I would do quiet time meditation 3 times a day.

Working on your breathing which is all important in calming your nerves.

Sending you gentle hugs anon. Do you have anyone there with you? xx

[anon99 in reply to Agora1]

Agora, telling me this made me snap out of it. I shouldn’t be putting my baby through this. I didn’t specifically tell her how often I’m having them but I have an appointment this coming Wednesday early in the morning. I fear going into detail to her because I don’t want it to come true.. I am just terrified of dying during labor- I can’t see myself with a baby and I look at the baby clothes and car seat and I just want to live to meet my baby. I guess I have been obsessing. Going over thoughts and seeing bad things happen to me daily before she gets here or during labor. I’m just alone. I have no one. I feel scared to talk about my feelings.

[Agora1 in reply to anon99]

My heart goes out to you anon. What has put that fear of dying in you?

You are going in for your wellness checks and the midwife said everything

is good. Did you have a friend go through some hard times with pregnancy?

This is one of the most exciting times of a woman's life. The joy and

unconditional love you will feel when holding your baby will take away all

the doubts and fears you've had before hand.

It's a natural instinct that even animals have to protect and care for their young.

It is very important to talk to someone about your feelings. You need to be surrounded by people who can support you and care about you. Don't listen

to any do gooders telling you stories of people they knew... This is about you

anon and no one else. Switch those negative thoughts to happy positive ones.

It is so important. It will help you immensely.

Please let your midwife know how debilitating these attacks are on a daily basis.

She may have some recommendation for you since she knows your health history.

It's going to be okay. You're going to be okay. Hugs xx

P S I will talk with you privately if you want right up to the Labor & Delivery.

Holding your hand virtually. x

[anon99 in reply to Agora1]

I’ve had a healthy pregnancy. It’s just a fear ive always had since I was young- I’m not sure why or how it was planted in my brain. I guess movies. And of course I was googling when I first found out I was pregnant. It’s hard especially being alone and pregnant. Ty Agora- you are right. I will reach out. And I will definitely take you up on that offer. Im so grateful you are here, I wish I could get you a gift basket. I’m relaxed now and my mind is clear..

[Agora1 in reply to anon99]

Keep that relaxed and clear mind.

I don't need a gift basket, I just need

you happy and content.

Goodnight anon....we'll talk tomorrow xx

[Vanessa707]

Anxiety is normal , YOU are normal. Don’t ever let anxiety take over and make you feel like you cannot get through it because guess what? You certainly can. I understand your fear and it’s totally okay I have fears too. You just need to remember that you are a healthy human being and you have so much to offer in this world. You’re going to be an amazing mother! Your pregnancy will be amazing . Don’t you worry, have faith and just know everything is going to be okay.❤️