I'm tired of feeling like I have no control.

[DemureRose]

In many of my previous posts, I have discussed my inner turmoil in regards to my senior year perhaps being discontinued because of COVID-19. Well today, we got news that school will almost definitely end.

As much as I have tried to prepare for this outcome, there really is nothing you can do to truly get yourself ready for it. How do you get yourself ready for the possibility of your senior year being over? It's not possible.

It's just...I am so tired of people making decisions about my life. It feels like recently my life is out of my control, that I don't have any say in anything. And I'm tired of it.

They won't even offer any comfort to seniors! All they have said is that our credits will transfer. Don't they realize that is the least of our concern? We aren't worried about freaking credits! We just want the memories. The memories that we can never get back. If school ends, we don't get our last week of high school. We don't get our last day of high school. We don't get to walk the halls for the last time. We don't get to say goodbye to our favorite teachers or our school friends. We don't get a prom or a baccalaureate or a senior breakfast. Those memories will be gone. And they'll never come back.

All I want is for them to offer some sort of comfort or solution to us. Tell us we get a graduation. Even if it has to happen in July or August, just offer us something we can hold onto here! We have absolutely nothing. Nothing. I just want something! It is just hard to try and get through the tunnel when there is no light at the end of it.

*I just want to say that I understand that people are suffering from COVID-19. I am praying for their health and their families in this time. And I understand that some may find me selfish or bratty for being angry at these decisions. But this is MY life right now. This is something that I can never get back. I don't feel like it's wrong of me to be angry at the government for ruining my life (right now). Because graduation is the most important thing in my life right now.

[blackcat64013]

I hear you. So much has changed in our lives due to the virus. If you want to have this important event how about being the person to request it? You could even include your post. Sometimes if you want x to change, you have to be the change agent yourself. Take care and look after yourself.