Relapse

[Hopefortoday]

Hi All

I started a new job three months ago after getting laid off. It’s been a challenge in that I need to get up early and leave by six to get into the city. It’s a contract job and the environment is toxic. I am keeping it until I find something new and trying to set boundaries while I look. I need the job partly because I am also planning a wedding. I have an underlying fear about this job that is that I will be used and abused. Partly because I applied to a job that someone else got and I don’t want to report to this person as I am just as qualified. So driving in today I felt the panic come on stronger than usual and I pulled to the slow lane it passed and I got to work. I find it easy to beat myself up over the panic and physical symptoms again. I know this is not helpful and they only come a few times a year. But each time I feel the dizziness I get alarmed. I have to remembered that it passes and be gentle with myself

[aber218deen]

Hi hopefortoday, just came across your post and absolutely feel for you and the predicament that has occurred! A bit of encouragement I received when in a position quite similar to yourself was,.... What is for you..... Will not go by you!! So just imagine that in the future, you will get the job you have been looking for, that might not have happened if you got this job,and if you did get this job, maybe the person who did get this job, might have been an absolute nightmare to work with,as they would adopt the same thought process, that they would not want to work with you as they had the same amount of experience,so basically, just take a deep breath every morning, until your dream job comes along!! Just a bit of my thinking on the matter, and really hope that dream job comes along soon, good luck, John.