I haven’t had to post on here for a long time but I really feel as though my mental health is getting bad again. I feel like I’m going insane, I can’t think straight, I can’t bring myself to do anything other than go to work and go home again. I get the rare day where I’ll actually go out and do something on my own. I’m paranoid, I have extremely irrational thoughts and I am negative about everything. I can’t seem to find the light anymore. I recently started a new job 5 weeks ago and I haven’t given myself nearly enough time to settle in. I let the pressure get to me today and cried on my new manager which I am now really embarrassed by. Sometimes I think the only way for me to ever be happy is to just sit inside all day, never see anyone and never speak to anyone.
I’m basically looking for some much needed positive words and advice. I’m considering going to the doctors and seeing if I can go back on anti depressants but again I’m worried about the side affects etc will they make me feel worse?
Thanks