Health Anxiety—healing

[hippieebbbz09]

Hi

I’m on a journey to really healing anxiety, for good for me. I want to get this to a point that I can manage it and not get off-track . There’s plenty habits to unlock and confront and heal from and also other forms of anxiety that I have ...Health Anxiety, Relationship and Social Anxiety.

As I list these , Health anxiety bothers me the most. I honestly have that chip on my shoulder daily. I’m always in “self-monitoring” mode...monitoring every twitch , itch, mark on myself , bump, ache. I have had countless visits to several clinics . It’s a cycle I want to break. Now, my boyfriend has seen me mentally , “monitor” myself , as I’ve tried hiding it from him for a while ..( example — id sense a twitch or ache and I’d already be in conversation with him...then I’d get quiet and monitor myself and then go on Google for the remainder of the date...he finally confronted me on my couch one weekend, he wanted to watch a movie but I was wrapped up in google articles on health and skin conditions or nerve conditions or muscular conditions I didn’t have) but I think the point where we had an intervention, I was trying to lay with him and watch Netflix , had a period of trapped gas so I couldn’t lay down yet, well, while burping ....I felt a wave of panic but I thought of other conditions and begged him to drive me to a walk in clinic. He was standing there , staring like a deer in headlights. Another wasted visit to the clinic, more medical bills ...and he stayed up through it all. I felt ashamed , period because I myself don’t want to go through this. My mind is literally a puppet for anxiety. It does want it want with my thoughts but now I want to heal.

I finally sought out a therapist and will meet with her soon!

I found an article and hope this will bring new perspective and help someone . We don’t have to be a prisoner to our anxious thoughts anymore

adaa.org/learn-from-us/from...

( copy and paste into your search bar on safari and READ!)

When you do read , share thoughts below ! Or maybe share experiences you currently have ...I only have limited advice but it’s something ...maybe your methods to break this will help me too. So any thoughts on this..share below

[Odd1]

Lol its not funny but i do the same. My girlfriend thinks im crazy but im not. I know someting is wrong i goggle symptoms alot i havent in a few weeks but i always go back. She got tired of taking me to the er to the point she said i would have to hit the floor which is scary! But i feel i do have something going on because now my breathing feels off its a scary feeling. What kinda helped was to come to terms if something is bad wrong its just gonna happen its hard to come to terms with that but i did. Its in gods hands after doctors fail i guess. But sorry you go thru this because i know what you go through