Feeling like I’m going nuts

I’m having a lot of anxiety today. Like I mentioned in my last post, I requested time off from work because of how weird I’ve been feeling since Zoloft. I’m starting to get so stressed that I’ll never feel better and by the time I got up, I felt so sad and foggy and weird. I’ve had a ton of stress in my life but never have I felt like this. I feel so disconnected from everything.

I don’t know what to do. I seem to only be able to function when I’m with people because when I’m not, I freak out and think worst case scenarios. I just wish I could get my life back.

It feels like the smallest amount of stress = a severe depersonalization or brain fog or just like an incredibly bad panic attack.

Honestly, the post I made where everyone jumped on and told me I tapered incorrectly triggered me so bad. I followed the instructions of multiple pharmacists and psychiatrists. What I would do to just rewind to February when I had my stomach bug and just chill out.. hypochondria ruined everything for me and it erupted into the worst panic and agoraphobia I’ve ever experienced.

I’m so scared my psychotherapist is wrong. I ask him every week if I’m in psychosis and he’s done giving me reassurance.

I had such a good laugh yesterday and I seriously can’t believe how down I feel right now? I’m seriously praying that this is the withdrawal because I’ve never felt anything like this.

God I just want a hug!! I feel so embarrassed that I requested more time off but, seriously, just the thought of going to nyc exhausts me. I miss Boston so much.

[Blueshirt]

Your self awareness and ability to write down what you are going through is inspiring to those of us who just freeze when confronted with such things. Thank you.

Whilst it is clear your insightfulness and sensitivity marks you as an accomplished deep thinker, such gifts can bring with them pain as you are experiencing. By sharing your thoughts you are engaging with us in this forum and benefiting all; in so helping everyone I hope you derive some sense of satisfaction.

In the meantime don't be so hard on yourself; get out and get some exercise; read a page turning novel; or do whatever you feel like and spoil yourself for a day

Good luck

[Mongea]

Good morning! I’m five months into my recovery and that includes Zoloft. I can tell you I feel exactly the same way you do several days out of the week. I actually question my sanity... my therapist and I are working on grounding techniques but the feeling of disconnect is so strong at times that It’s hard to overcome. I am constantly seeking reassurance from people around me that I’m ok. I’m a believer that the way I’m feeling is from the medication because I didn’t have this symptom before taking Zoloft. However, I’m on 125 mg so I can’t just stop taking it- I’m accepting that this is the way I’ll feel while I taper slowly.

I would recommend trying yoga, meditation, walking, reading, anything that can be grounding. For me it’s talking to or spending time with my family of origin. Also, gardening and cooking are grounding for me.

If I can be of any help please reach out.