Can anyone help? Heart related

[Ckd123]

Ok so I’v been struggling so bad since my uncle passed away from a heart attack 6 weeks ago. I posted yesterday about a major panic attack I had at the weekend and how terrifying it was, I never experienced anything like it and it was because I got a weird feeling in chest/back and thought I was about to have a heart attack. Every single day I get some symptoms, chest, upper back, arm, jaw pain. These pains are real, not phantom pains but I just can’t understand why I would get them if my heart is ok. I’m obsessed with this, I’m starting to get paranoid aswell, if I see a hearse on the road I think it’s a sign that I’m going to die soon. Every waking moment is spent think and worrying about heart attacks and death, my mind can’t get a break. I can’t get into see my doctor until Monday, I have no Xanax left and I’m so terrified to face the weekend. It’s even a while since I had any heart tests, last ekg was a year ago, stress test and 24 hour holter monitor were 2 years ago. All normal then but I want them done again but feel embarrassed about hounding my doctor for different tests. Please help me, I was doing so well but now I feel I’m worse than I ever was.

[Salhndz]

Hello Ckd123. I used to be on the same boat as you. I had my very tirst panic attack about 4 mo ago and scared the heck out of me. My grandma and uncle, from my dad side, both died of heart attack. That had me so scared, because I thought it was happening to me. I've seen a cardiologist and had stress test, echo, numerous ekg's and all well. But the constant fear and worry that something was wrong with me, started making things worse for me. The panics increased, then about a month ago, I developed acid reflux from the constant worry. The heartburn feeling from the reflux, caused me to think that it could be the heart. But again, several urgent care visits, all checked out well. My last panic attack, 3 weeks ago, I decided I had enough, I sat in my car in front of the ER and listened to the DARE app as it coached me thrlough the event. I yeld at my self and dared the panic to kill me. Did my breathing and got over the panic without going into the ER. I felt a weight off my shoulders that I even sobbed like a baby. I haven't had any panics ever since, but I did develop AFIB and I truely beleive that it is because of the constant fear and worry that now my heart goes out of rythm. I'm no longer scared. I let the symptoms be. My cardiologist assured me that no one dies from this. I'm taking meds to get my heart beat back into rythm, but no longer take anxiety pills. So bottom line, I truely recommend that you stop worriying about dieying, as that worry can lead to other illnesses. Take it one day at a time. Tell yourself that each day is going to be a good day. Stay positive and live in the present and not your thoughts. Check out headspace app and pacifica. These have helped me tremendously. Don't know if you're spiritual, but turn to God for help. Prayer is very powerful. God bless and hppe you recover soon!