And breathe......

[Janieliza]

My days over, some of you may just be waking or tucking into lunch....or some may simply be reading a book, watching t.v. alone and enjoying the peace. You know when you want to start the day again yet make different choices?. Me. I've fought so hard to live as one with anxiety and depression and I'm ashamed to say I had a massive wobble today. It's left me emotionally drained and tearful. Today reminded me how far I've come yet also poked me in the forehead just to remind me it's always lurking ready to pounce. Thankyou to you for the kind words earlier....sending huggles. Im sure I'll be back to my annoying self tmrw. Hugs. J x

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

Sorry to hear you are having a bad day. Hope it will pass soon. Always here if needed! Much love!

[Janieliza in reply to Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

Thankyou lovely....ex husband totally annihilated me for 6 hours. But I'll be ok...thanks again honey. J

[xrosstheh in reply to Janieliza]

Hey. Hope you have a much better day and more days ahead of you. Some days i feel really down when i get that dizzy sensation that all doctors have failed to explain and it just gets to me. Just know that you are not alone and we all have each others backs on this one. Take care

[Janieliza in reply to xrosstheh]

Thankyou so much...im back to being ok today. Was out first thing for a breakfast meeting and now feet up and watching Dr Who(exciting life I lead lol) J

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell in reply to Janieliza]

He does not deserve your head space. He’s not paying rent there anymore! Tell him the facts and then it’s non negotiable so talk to the hand. I’m sorry he’s troubling you!

[Janieliza in reply to Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

He didn't pay when he was here full stop...my goodness no. He squeaked when he walked he was that tight lol. But I married him so I shan't moan too much.. (ok maybe a little hehe) I own the house so no mortgage or rent. It's in my name. I wanted my own independence and that meant not relying on him for anything....thats worked out just fine as it happens esp after what happened. Talk to the hand....ohhh that did make me smile..thankyou lovely. X

[melbrown]

Hope you are feeling better now.... its okay to have a bad day. We all know anxiety & depression don't take holidays. Sending hugs. Merry Christmas. 🎄

Mel

[Janieliza in reply to melbrown]

Thankyou Mel...im fine now lovely. Just a little wobble. I hope you had a lovely day. Yes A+D don't recognise holidays do they? Grrrrr lol. Take care. J

[Pontiac1979]

Just remember it's only as bad as you make it it's so easy to be negative hardly takes any effort at all but with just a little effort we could make every thing positive that is what I'm putting my time and effort in from now on

[Janieliza in reply to Pontiac1979]

I was overly positive when I brought my mother and the ex arrived. Even got him gifts. I gritted my teeth and smiled (for my children's sakes rather than my own) and didn't say a word...id say that's being pretty positive. Often it doesn't matter if we go all in and are happy to lucky...one can only take so much knocking down...and last night? I had my fill. I couldn't have put more effort in had I tried. Anyway...its over now and I'm back to normal(whatever that is!).

[reinagrace]

Hugs to you Janieliza . We've all survived another Christmas and now it's over and hopefully we all get relief tomorrow. Blessings

[Janieliza in reply to reinagrace]

Haven't we? Yessss it's over and onward and upward we go. Hugs. J

[jessiejakes in reply to Janieliza]

It will soon be another year 2018 bring it on ! The past few years were not good lost my mum and 7 Nov this year my xhusband father of my 3 married children.I'm going to enjoy 2018 will be planning a list of places I want to visit .I will go forward with acceptance and a smile on my face hope you have a great year ahead to.and well done for getting through Christmas that took a lot of guts !!!! You should be proud of yourself and the wobble ? Hell anyone would get them I have to remind myself most days ......just accept the wobbles as best you can.

[Janieliza in reply to jessiejakes]

Yes another year looms...hasnt this one gone quickly? Or at least I think it has. I'm back to my cheery self today. Wobbles aside, the kids had a great Christmas so that's all that matters. Mum and dad(aka..myself and their father) being pleasant to each other(at least on the surface) so all good. Our sons 18 so he sees and hears, doesn't say anything but yesterday he was incredibly supportive and offered to help in the kitchen(that was a Christmas gift in itself lol) which was lovely. It was over in the snap of my fingers and roll on 2018. Like yourself I will go into it with a smile on myself and raise a glass to you all at the same time(sparkling water for me!!)...whom without, last night's wobble could have turned out very differently. Take care. J