Feeling lost and overwhelmed with anxiety and depression folks want me to go back to work soon afraid...

[Hightemplar34]

Hi I've been battling anxiety and depression for the last year and 3 months. It was incredibly bad last year so bad I couldn't leave the apartment. Since then I feel stressed alot of days and I get muscle spasms in my groin alot and other parts of my body especially my legs. I feel like I'm suffocating in my own body with alot of stress and sometimes I have trouble sleeping. I also sleep alot and sometimes don't get up till 3 pm and this makes my anxiety worse and I feel groggy and spaced out. I try to get up early cuz that makes me feel better but I still have trouble getting up. I'm bipolar 1 With generalized anxiety disorder. I started driving for lyft and uber and that was going well but I stopped doing it for a bit even though it makes me feel better. I want to go back to work but not full time as I think that would overwhelm me and might cause a bipolar episode extreme anxiety. Any thoughts on what I should do going forward I hate the way I feel alot just don't know what to do and my family is pressuring me to go back to work even though I often don't feel up to it. Definitely don't want to sleep all day like I have a lot as it makes me feel worse.

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Hey know how you feel with the muscle spasms I mainly get them in the leg and pain in the groin. I also sleep a lot and started napping in the afternoon which always makes me feel worse. Try taking small steps like if a park is close to you go for a walk in a park get your phone and headphones sit down on a bench and meditate that seemed to help for me. Go to a shop and buy something even though that sent my heart racing but I got used to social interactions after a while and tell yourself you are in control of this and it will not get to you. Go for a random drive if not to stressful if there is countryside around you. I find quiet peaceful areas outside help a lot with nice views to relax my mind.