Out-of-nowhere Inferiority complex is taking over my life

[sugarstelation]

I didn't know what I had until I researched extensively for about two days.

I just need to open up about this, because I've found that I can't talk about topics that really concern me with anyone, since it would put me in a state of inferiority and vulnerability that terrifies me, changing the view that person has of me.

I want to be respected to a huge extent. I get anxiety and overthink what I'm always about to say because I'm scared to sound stupid, unfunny, etc. I am terrified of failure in the eyes of others, because that would mean rejection. And I care too much. I can't shake the feeling that I won't be considered as an equal, or have my opinions and ideas listened out.

This describes it well:

"People who “know” they’re actually smart, good looking, successful, etc… but still feel inferior. It’s like a mysterious feeling that they aren’t good enough that they know isn’t based on anything real or solid."

Social interaction has began to scare me because I'll believe I will not be welcomed since I'm not good enough to be in the group. I can only socialise drunk. I believe humanity has a scale of worth, and people gather together in consideration of their value, similar to 'staying in your own lane'. I'll consider the people that I'm interacting with are worth more than I am. I want to aim high, but I'm too scared to fall if I do.

I usually combat my inferiority complex with a superiority complex. What I really need is to not care about others, but I don't know how to get there. I need help on overcoming this ****** inferiority complex.

I'd give examples, but this text resulted to be too long. Thank you for reading, if you do.

Tl;dr Explanation of my inferiority complex.

[SW25]

Try watching some of the many You Tubes on TED Talks. Great info. These are professional people who have had a certain condition and share what they did to overcome it.