Going Downhill Fast.

[_Reba_]

Everything was going alright for me a few months back. I was getting high grades at college and also in my exams. My anxiety was getting better but I still had the odd day where I struggled.

About a month ago, I suddenly lost all motivation. This effected my college work and getting up in the morning. My grades dropped fast and I was no longer producing work. I was suicidal and started self harming again. I was still in therapy at this point and now college were aware of these issues. I was told to go back to the doctors but he only suggested 'happy pills', I guess this was the only option left. I said no and stuck with therapy until I was discharged which was a few weeks back. I have been referred somewhere else since then. I managed to finish the rest of my college work at home and finished for the summer holiday.

My anxiety has returned and it's hit me so hard. I'm having panic attacks daily and I constantly feel on edge all the time. I'm using Rescue Remdey and lavender products to help since I do not take medication. I couldn't even take a bath the other day since I started panicking in the bathtub. I cannot relax at all and my only escape seems to be when I'm sleeping. I get random moments where I just cry but I'm just fed up of this. My mum is even suggesting that I go on medication but I'm only 17. She never wanted me on medication but even she is seeing how bad it's getting.

I'm so frustrated and just wish this would go away.

[capedlitigator]

The very same thing happened my first year at college, when, my first son was born, and at similar life changes. You are not alone.

[_Reba_ in reply to capedlitigator]

It's nice to know that I am not alone as it surely feels like that sometimes.

Thank you

[Cat33]

Hello Reba I was really sorry to read your post I often think about you and you were doing great I do hope that you will start to feel so much better very soon Maybe the tablets might be good to try just to get you back on your feet your doctor will be there to help you with them

Take lots of care of yourself and you know I'm always here for you xxxx

[_Reba_ in reply to Cat33]

It's so nice to hear from you again. I was thinking of emailing you but I got a new phone and everything was wiped.

I've honestly been thinking of trying the tablets but I'm worried about side effects. I'm always worried about trying new medication due to this worry I have.

[Cat33 in reply to _Reba_]

If you are on holiday now you could try them and see I'm sure your doctor will be with you all the way to help you I do think it's worth a try as you have nothing to lose except these awful feelings and just get you back to how you were before

I've had anti depressants in the past and never had any nasty side effects they just helped me through a rough time

I'll email you tomorrow so you have my address

Night night I hope you can sleep tight xxx

[_Reba_ in reply to Cat33]

Thank you

[Cat33]

💕💕💕

[blossomgirl]

I cry all the time even at work and I'm so embarrassed but it's so overwhelming. Don't even know why. Hang in there you are not alone and it can get better.👍

[_Reba_ in reply to blossomgirl]

Thank you ❤️