Exhausted

[Angiecis22]

Anxiety over my health is getting too much for me. Causing me depression and because of that I'm just so tired of living. I wanna die but I'm to scared. So I guess this is like suicidal thoughts Coz if i wasn't afraid of dying I'd probably would of killed myself already. It's just so exhausting living with anxiety and depression

[Agora1]

Hi Angiecis22, I use to think I was too afraid to live and yet too afraid to die. So the alternative was getting through each day. Now I'm glad I found my way. Anxiety no longer bothers me or takes over like it use to. Depression which I call "down days" is just a part of life. One day, it all seemed to come together and it will for you too. x

[Beevee]

Hi Angiesis22

Sorry to read that you are going through such a tough time but try not to worry too much as it will pass in time.

As you may already know, your depression is a symptom of you constantly frightening yourself which feels exhausting and an expression of emotional exhaustion. To summarise, it is your constant worrying about your health and inward thinking that is making you feel like you do.

The way to recovery is through understanding and acceptance of your condition. If you don't already have a copy, I strongly urge you to read a book called Essential Help For Your Nerves by Dr Claire Weekes. This book will explain all you need to know as to why you think and feel the way you do (understanding). This understanding paves the way to recovery through acceptance of your condition. Acceptance of all your thoughts and feelings is the cornerstone to recovery and made easier if you know why you feel like you do, hence my advice to read that book.

The crux of the matter boils down to the fact that you are constantly trying to fight your way out of a hole which you have dug yourself but perhaps don't realise that your fighting is just making the hole deeper. When I say fighting, you constantly engage/question the thoughts and feelings, try to control them or try to push them away. This is where you are going wrong and need to do the exact opposite and give up the fight. By doing absolutely nothing about the thoughts and feelings and letting if all happen without putting up any resistance, gives your tired mind and body the space it needs to recover.

Your nerves have been battered by all the worry, stress and inward thinking and the reason why your thoughts and emotions about anything and everything are grossly exaggerated and frightening. You need to learn not to react to these thoughts and feelings which adds more fear to the fear that is already there. Change your attitude to all those thoughts and feelings from "what if?" to "so what!" and let if all be there, recovery will find you. All of what I have described is in the book but in much more detail and if followed correctly, you will recover, no question about it. Your mind and body is just waiting to recover but you keep getting in the way of the natural healing process by fighting if all the time. Give up the fight.

Best wishes

Beevee

[Sfqueen in reply to Beevee]

I bought the book called hope and help for your nerves by her 🙏🏽 I hope it helps

[kinikia95]

I will defer to the other commenters because they have great advice but yep. Totally relate. it seems complicated like we are the only ones who feel this way but I'm right there with you. So many of us feel the same way and we're here. I'm glad you came. I would never wish this on anyone but still comforting to hear someone telling my same story. Please keep reaching out, it helps us all.

[Sfqueen]

Do you feel like a suicidal feeling.? Because that's what I get like a thought/feeling. I am exhausted too

[Angiecis22 in reply to Sfqueen]

Yeah it's more like I'm just exhausted from waking up every day and knowing I'm gonna go through some type of anxiety feeling that day and I'm just too tired to do it again like i did the previous day and for the past 8 months now

[Kaleidescope in reply to Sfqueen]

I think about suicide every morning when I wake, during the day (although I am so exhausted and weak that I sleep during the day as well). I am not anorexic but cannot eat - everything tastes horrible and I always end up throwing half of it away. I am diabetic but because I have start to eat chocolate and sweet things for a bit of temporary energy. My legs tremble with weakness all the time. Each night I think the next day must be better but it is always worse. I do not have one friend so am alone each and every day. I find it impossible to go out and as I live in a foreign country and cannot speak the language so it is hopeless.

[Lozlee007]

Hello

I am really sorry to hear about how you are feeling. I completely understand I get the same feeling every so often depending on the situation. It's extremely upsetting and distressing for us but pat yourself on the back you have just got through those feelings. I think we are stronger then we realise as each day we have to get passed our aniexty and depression and therefore each day is a fight. What I find helps is finding s little joy in the very simple things that you achieve and the days which are bad try to accept it's a down day but remember if you overcome once you can do it again.

[Tonyhope]

I no how you feel, but wanting to die is not the answer

[Angiecis22 in reply to Tonyhope]

I know it isn't but you know I just get so tired from waking up every day and facing the same thing I did before

[Maggie-cassidy1988 in reply to Angiecis22]

Ano how u fell same as me part from a think am dying 24/7 all the time the get sore head then a fell like am going to faint and hust die so horrible

[Tonyhope in reply to Angiecis22]

Yes i really no what you mean trust me i go thru it all everyday it seems like a new symptom occurs an i cant believe anxiety is the cause of everything

[Satsuma in reply to Angiecis22]

I totally get u

[Lynl]

I understand how exhausting it is , but to end your life would be tragic for you and your loved ones. This will get better, take baby steps. I don't know what your faith is , but if you believe in God, have a talk with him . I do it a lot . Breathe ❤️

[Andrea1915]

I know exactly how you feel! I'm going through the same thing feelings and thoughts every day it's a terrible way to live and feel all the time I have been considering going into a treatment facility for anxiety I just want to know why our minds won't shut it off why can't we focus on other things like things that really are here and true and be in the present moment. I feel like I am always in my head "what if'ing" every thing I live in the past and the future and I have constant fear of what's going to happen instead of enjoying the life I have today and focusing on more positive things and not being so absorbed into my health or my symptoms I would give the world to be free of this it's literally like being in a prison in your head you cant escape the thoughts the same ones over and over again with no resolution just thinking about it I want to know why!!

[Beevee in reply to Andrea1915]

Hi

If you develop a new attitude towards the anxiety, you will free yourself. Replace all the What ifs with So What! Give up caring, give up fighting, give up trying to control the anxiety. You have no control, there is nothing to control but you keep going round in circles getting nowhere fast. Do the opposite and do nothing.

There is a very good saying which is absolutely true about anxiety. You won't get better until you stop trying to get better. It is the constant trying that keeps you stuck in the cycle so give up trying to do anything about the anxiety and all of its symptoms.

Regards

Beevee

[Andrea1915 in reply to Beevee]

I love that you said to say "so what" instead of "what if" I will really try my hardest to tell myself this thank you for that advice I'm not one to post on the Internet I search a lot of stuff but never post but I feel so alone lately in this current episode of anxiety I'm having a really hard time getting through a day

[Beevee in reply to Andrea1915]

Visit another website called Anxiety No More. It was created by an ex-sufferer called Paul David so he knows all there is to know about anxiety and how to recover. It really helped me to recover. Lots of good advice which I am just passing on.

[Andrea1915 in reply to Beevee]

Thank you so much I will

Look that up

[Beevee in reply to Andrea1915]

Remember, it isn't really a doing thing, it is a change in your attitude. Don't run away from the thoughts and feelings. Just learn to be ok about not feeling ok and don't argue with the thoughts. Let them have their say but just observe. Suppose it's like being in a sweet shop/ candy store. You can look but don't touch ha ha 😀

[Satsuma in reply to Beevee]

I am constantly trying to free myself from this but instead is a vicious circle

[Satsuma in reply to Andrea1915]

It's constant repetition day in day out

[Satsuma]

I so know what you mean