Heath Anxiety and now this....

[Kayanne1980]

Hi all

I have suffered with HA since I can remember.

Beginning of January 2016 I got the worst cause of HA and we are now in July and the HA is still there.

Its a multitude of things but first it was lungs, then throat, then stomach and now colon, all my evasive testing for lungs, throat and stomach are normal i.e. x-rays, scopes etc. however a new one has started and that is convincing myself I have colon cancer.

I have gone so far as to order blood tests online and now one of the elements within a FBC have come back abnormal and I am literally crying myself to sleep. My dr is not concerned and said I should take a full blood count again with the surgery in a months time and kind of ignored my symptoms about a cramping belly every day....

I am at my wits end with it all, I am petrified this is cancer of the colon and I am not dealing with it all very well........

Can anyone relate to these feelings?

[jamie1975]

I feel your pain I really do although I don't have HA I have depression anxiety for years. Been on anti depressants and dr suggested I try to go off them because I've been stable for years so this was about April 4 yrs ago I felt fine and glad I was off med. tHen in august of that year went for yearly gyns appt.and I had heavy bleeding so dr wanted to a uterine biopsy well that upset me some but all was good just a thick uterine. So then I booked my mammogram and all hell broke loose! They saw a spot that looked abnormal and wanted biopsy done. This sent me on a downward spiral to hell. I waited for apt then results and in that time I couldn't even work I was so upset couldn't concentrate on anything except what if I have breast cancer I lost a lot of weight in a short amount of time went back on anti depressants and anti anxiety meds. But before anti depressants kicked in I felt so bad I had a thought of taking all the pills just to stop the hurting. Well I called dr. And she sent me to hospital. When I got there my blood pressure was extremely high.gave me a stronger sedative and I got t back home. You see I didn't want to die I just wanted the anxiety to go away so bad that's the only way I thought it would go away. Well finally got results of biopsy and it wasn't cancer I wa relieved you wouldnt believe! But there as a catch wanted to do surgery and take the abnormal cells out and I freaked out because I was told I w having a partial masectomy! Ended up having surgery to take out some micros pic cells with an inch long incising. Long story short I made myself sick working over nothing. Hope didn't bore you but like you said your dr is not concerned you shouldnt be concerned either best of luck to you and keep me updated okI

[Kayanne1980 in reply to jamie1975]

Hi

Thanks for the message i know exactly how you feel, i dont want to die as thats my faer i just want to feel normal like i did years ago for example a cough could be a cold but now every little feeling i think its a tumor starting or im really ill.

It has a huge impact on my life and im getting married in 3 months and feel i wont be alive now to enjoy it so my interest is so diminished in organizing my wedding its solely concentrated on my health even though i smoke and on life warfarin.

My trust in doctors is zero as i have diagnosed 3 times incorrectly and nearly lost my life in all parts. I had dvt for 6 months and was diagnosed with a torn calf muscle then i have gallstones for a year and they said i had reflux then i had pneumonia and they said i broke a rib so yes there you go my faith is zero so any dr now i see i question them all the time and do my own investigations!

I have diagnosed with globus too which is terrifying and now all if this too. Since January my anxiety is at its worst and all the dr says is you need therapy as he refuses to prescribe me medication.

I am changing surgeries now as i feel they are not listening to me!

Im at my lowest!!