I'm not sure if this post fits this site but I guess it could fall under anxiety. Now, I'm not fishing for compliments or anything like that, but I just want honest feedback. My question is, why do lots of people tell me I'm "pretty/beautiful/stunning" but I think I'm so ugly I can barely look in a mirror without feeling disgusted? My family tells me I'm pretty but obviously I don't believe them because well... they're family. When I go to stores, the sales people tell me I'm beautiful but I just think it's because they want me to buy something. Random strangers come up to me in public to tell me I'm pretty but I don't believe them either. I suffer from anxiety, I'm deathly shy, and I don't have many friends at all. I always wonder, if I was really beautiful, why don't I have friends and why don't guys ever (and I mean ever) approach me? I hate the way I look. Some days I won't leave the house because I'm literally embarrased by my appearance. The worst part is, this is with makeup. I've been told I should start a youtube channel or pursue makeup because according to others, I'm good at it. I wonder, if I feel embarrased going into public with makeup (which I can't leave the house without on), how would I feel one day not wearing makeup around people (ex. sleepovers, swimming, etc)? I know I'll probably get responses saying, "it's not about outer beauty, it's about inner beauty, blah blah" but people always tell me I'm nice, (even angelic?). If I'm supposedly pretty and nice, why am I a loner? I'm really not trying to be vain, I just truly believe I'm ugly and can not understand what other people see when they look at me. This really bothers me as it always makes me feel depressed.