I have had health anxiety for a few years but its out of control at min. I feel half the person i used to be. I know why its gone out of control because my partner passed away. But how do i take hold. I am getting sharp pains dwn my neck on and off i feel dizzy my glands are swollen but i think thats cuz i had a cold few weeks bk might have picked up an infection. I jst dnt no anymore i can never get into the doctors they must think oh shes here again. I am scared to go on meds cuz of the side effects i still need to function as i am a mother. I have lost all my confidence jst seem to take myself off and cry i feel a wreck. I started cbt last week it was more jst a getting to no u meeting i cnt make tmows appoint due to child care. I feel i am going crazy.