I keep having disturbing thoughts that make me want to crawl out of my skin and I'm so scared of them, scared of myself. I cry so much and I can't tell my boyfriend about my thoughts cause he's very volatile and wouldn't understand and it makes the anxiety even more that I can't talk to him about it because I love him so much and want to be able to go to him for anything. I want to open up about these thoughts but I'm so afraid people will look at me like I'm not normal. What if these thoughts don't go away? I'm so scared, I'm deathly afraid. I keep thinking of killing myself and I have no idea what to do. Please help.