I feel like im crazy...

[Lindsey14]

Ik, i keep posting about this, but I'm really panicking and scared. im scared I'm actually crazy or psycho. Scared I'll lose control or something. Afraid I'll do something bad. My wild thoughts scare me so much. Im scared I'll stop feeling emotions. I'm scared ill stop caring.... Its all I can think about.

[teemo1]

You are definitely not going crazy, although I know anxiety can make it feel like we are. This article explains it well:

anxietynetwork.com/content/...

[Lindsey14 in reply to teemo1]

Thank you❤ I appreciate it

[Johnnie1234]

i feel the same way i feel like im just going to go crazy i dont even feel like myself sometimes i get worried.

[Nobster]

Lindsey , this is an anxiety / panic episode. Feeling of impending doom ? Feeling of being scared ? Feeling of being not at the wheel of your own mind ??

Lower your anxiety by breathing in 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9 and hold 1,2,3,4,5 and breathe out 9,8,7,6,5,4.3,2,1 and repeat for around 10-15 minutes. Calm down and relax.

Keeping your stress low and heart rate low is your aim and what your experiencing is very normal with anxiety and your not the only one.

Keep calm and breathe and take some chill out time and focus on something.

[Lindsey14 in reply to Nobster]

Thank you!

[Damian]

Is it that there are things you feel tempted to do, and you're afraid you'll give in, or is it just that you get random destructive ideas without wanting to do any of them? I think it's common to get both—I know I do—but I wondered if one of them in particular was bothering you.

[Lindsey14 in reply to Damian]

More if the random destructive than tempted.... I'm scared I'm heartless and the fact I like movies like fri the 13th makes me psycho and ill do something bad,silly ik

[Damian in reply to Lindsey14]

You don't sound heartless because the prospect of doing these things upsets you. If you were actually going to do something like that, you'd probably be thinking that it would be exciting or fun.

Someone here in the UK has just been sentenced for a crime of that sort, and he admitted that he found it hard not to laugh during the court case, because he felt so pleased with what he'd done. That's completely different to you (and other horror movie fans).

OCD usually works the way I get it, with an obsessive thought that then goes away for a while when you do a ritual. It's possible to get just the obsessive thoughts, though. People who get this form of OCD often imagine themselves hurting others, so while I can't say if that's what you've got, you certainly aren't on your own.

[Lindsey14 in reply to Damian]

Your response gives some relief, also what do you mean by rituals?

[Damian in reply to Lindsey14]

The rituals are the compulsive part of obsessive-compulsive disorder. You start with an obsessive thought, a thought that won't go away, like your worry that you are going to hurt people. Then if you have the compulsive part as well, you will have a ritual that you have to do, which makes the thought go away briefly.

The rituals are weird, they can be anything. It might be checking over and over again that you've locked the door before going out, turned the cooker off before going to bed, that sort of thing. It's sensible to check once but you can get stuck and need to check lots of times, in a very particular way. If you get distracted and don't check in quite the right order, you might find that you have to start again.

The rituals can also be something that's clearly pointless. It's generally clear to everyone, including the OCD sufferer, that the ritual is pointless—but it's still impossible to stop. It's a bit like an addiction I suppose. You get some temporary relief from your obsessive thoughts, but every time you do the compulsive bit, the ritual, it becomes harder to stop.