My anxiety is so bad this morning. It's been bad since yesterday. I have this gross taste in the back of my throat which I attribute to phlegm but it makes me think I have something else wrong and then my throat feels sick and I start to think I will be and I PANIC SO MUCH. It is not like the thought of eating grosses me out. It doesn't. But if I smell a smell that's like sickness, I like freak out and start tasting that smell. Can that taste be due to phlegm as I am fighting a cold.
I want to sleep but I am so anxious, I can't. And I'm scared and this is just hasn't been such a great day. My mom won't listen to me anymore and I don't blame her, but J just feel really trapped. I feel like my own body is my enemy and I just want to not be scared anymore. The taste thing didn't starts until the cold started with the phlegm and I just don't know what it is and I'm really frightened and tired but I cannot get myself to relax enough to sleep. My mom keeps telling me it's just a cold, but this is the first time I've been sick with anxiety so it feels different and worse and like I cannot calm myself down. And I can visualize something bad happening so clearly, I don't know how to stop those thoughts!