Just an update...

Hi all, how are we?

Well thought I would give you all and update as not feeling fantastic tonight

Saturday I went to therapy, it was fantastic and she uses mindfulness when seemed to of worked well

I then had a good weekend and felt quite well all weekend... Also met the man of my dreams, a very good looking rugby league player, not sure if any of you watch Rugby league!!

Woke up this morning and felt well.. Went to work and within an hour I was leant over mg desk, my eyes went all funny and went really dizzy was horrible and all the coping mechanisms I have went out the door... Then went to see the neurosurgeon, actually coped quite well, apart from when he started going on about draining my cyst if they really wanted to! I was like o lord here comes the dizziness!! Went really hot and dizzy then really sicky which I'm pretty sure was anxiety... Anyway he signed me off as they can't find anything wrong...

Went back to work and have felt not quite right all afternoon and evening my other half has gone out tonight and I'm sat here worrying a little bit I'm not feeling great

I think it must be anxiety as I can't feel well all weekend and then poorly again as soon as I'm back at work

Hope your all well x

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Hi fedup

Now I really admire your courage in having all these scans done & coping because you did cope & got your results !

You are so much braver than me !

I get these migraines with visual disturbance every 6 weeks sometimes 4 been having them nearly 5 years , i am sure its my age & hormones , went to see a neurologist , he did some tests on me said he could not see anything wrong but if it would give me peace of mind he would do a scan even though he didnt feel I needed one

Well I nearly fell over with fear & ran for the door saying no its ok you are alright

Yet every time I get a migraine I sit & worry & when I read about all the tests you have had done & come back all clear I think I wish I could have been brave enough !

You have been going through this a while now & your mind & body has got used to the way it feels , so maybe today it was thinking hang on we havnt had a dizzy spell for a couple of days , here we go lets have one !

Its going to take a while to change your way of thinking & how you react when your body gets these feelings

I am pleased the therapy gave you a lift & you felt so good after but like everything else , it will take more than one session & the more you go that feeling after will last longer till you can eventually do it on your own

Take your time & feel proud of everything you have gone through & how far you have come

Love

whywhy

xxx

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Thanks Whywhy... Well the neurosurgeon today started saying how they could remove the cyst if I wanted it removed and I'm like no no honestly it's fine whilst running to the door!! Hahaha!

The tests were not pleasant but I almost needed to know I was ok so I could tackle my anxiety.... Also I didn't believe for the first 6 months that I was suffering with anxiety... So wanted the tests...

I think it's my impatience... I just want to get better over night but need to manage my expectations.... X

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I think with anxiety we can suffer with a lack of patience

I dont blame you running to the door you have been through enough

I wonder if they get offended as we all seem to run away from them

xxx