Well ive done something this morning that ive been putting off for months. Ive made an appointment at the docs. The fear that I'll get the diagnosis I dread has put me off for so long. Stupid thing is its not just the diagnosis its all the rubbish that comes with it. I can't stand the thought of people knowing somethings wrong or how they will react. Ive told two people about this but even they dont know ive actually made an appointment. So in ten minutes im heading off on my own ive had far too long to think about this time to bite the bullet.