This morning is one of my worst in a good while, feel like someone is sitting on my heart and my palpitations are as bad as ever.....totally dragged back into my hole again 
Had a txt fight with my OH this morning, don't know if maybe that's caused it or not.
Xx
That probably didn't help. I think with most of us, mornings are the worse, anticipating what's ahead in the day. Try and take some deep breaths and small steps at a time into the day, break the day up then it won't be so scary. Hope it all gtes better for you. xx
Yeah I don't think it helped at all to be honest, but I have the doctors at 4 today so least if something's wrong I'm going to the right place lol 
Xx
Hi Ashley
txt fight thats a new one 
No I doubt if it will have helped you at all , there is nothing worse to set of your anxiety than having words with anyone , never mind your OH & in a morning
You have been doing so well , you really have & I have been really proud of you , I no how hard this is when its your fear , so I will help giving you a leg up out that hole , & you will climb back out I wont let you fall 
Try telling yourself these palps are anxiety & you are not listening , I no its hard , but if I thought for one min it was anything else , I would be going in caps saying get of to the doctors 
Thinking about you
Love
whywhy
xxx
You are so kind, I'm awful glad you have the strength to help me out my hole lol! I feel better now all thought the fight with the OH was about me going to the doctors today to chase up the monitor thing, my OH said I needed to start realising there was nothing wrong with me and accept it's all in my head and everyone gets heart palpitations and they deal with it, I'm going to have to learn that they are there and that's it.
So automatically I got my back up and went mad. As you do lol. But now I'm nervous going to the docs cos I don't want to waste her time
Xx
I will find the strength from some where
Now then Ashley as for OH , well when people dont suffer they dont understand & some cant even have an open mind to try (ex was like that ) but its not for them to tell us what we cant or should do , we have to do whats best for us ,because we are the ones suffering ,so you get to the GP you are not wasting their time , you need peace of mind & this will help give it you
Now you no I said I would chase up about been seen over that cyst , just done it & my day feels it has gone from bad to worse
Found out she hasnt done it yet , its been at least 3 weeks & I should have had an appointment by now , she is away till Tuesday as well & she has to dictate the letter , so I am defo going to look for Winters bucket of sand !
Come on you get to that GP'S & I have said before , maybe some things , even though I no its nice to have OH'S support , just sometimes are not worth mentioning , tell us instead
xxx
Hey Ashely everyone is right the row wouldn't have helped how your feeling today. The doctors appointment is a good thing at least then you can chase up about the heart monitor thing so you can get the peace of mind you need about your palps. Just keep telling yourself your fine there's nothing wrong. Hope your feeling better soon. x
Hey Will!
As I said above I'm scared to go to the docs now after the argument I has this morning, feel like I'm wasting the docs time, my OH/ex whatever we are calling her these days said I should just have phones to chase it up rather than make an appointment, what do you think?xx
Replying a bit late to this lol. But what's I'm saying would of been the same you need to do what's right for you and if seeing the GP is that thing then do it. As whywhy said people don't get it when they ain't suffering x
morning feeling 
Had a very bad morning...
Shaky legs this morning 
Cannot cope this morning...
