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[Summerhater]

Good morning! I live in New Zealand but am originally from Germany. Christmas is always a tricky time for me - especially on this side of the world where it is summer. I have this weird seasonal disorder but in reverse!!! I get anxious in summer because everyone is out there having fun and being happy. It’s super bad from 4pm until it gets dark. Does anyone else experience this?

[bethelbee]

I don't experience what you do but want to welcome you to the forum. Hope you find the support you need!

[Summerhater in reply to bethelbee]

Thank you!!!

[blimpsgo180]

I do not experience this, but maybe you could try to be out there yourself, having fun and being happy! You might be surprised how unhappy people actually are. As my mom likes to say, "Everyone is dealing with something." That could be chronic illness, a death in the family, or even anxiety like you have. Nobody lives a perfect life.

[Summerhater in reply to blimpsgo180]

You are of course absolutely right about everyone having their own struggle and intellectually I know this but then I have that inner voice saying that there is something inherently wrong with me and that I am not lovable. I am definitely out there swimming, catching up with friends, going to the movies, walking the dogs.

[blimpsgo180 in reply to Summerhater]

If you're human you're lovable! Also, that's great to hear you do get out!

[linuxusr]

Hello Summerhater, yeah it sure does sound like you are not suffering a circadian clock problem ("seasonal affective disorder"). It sounds rather like depression that others are having fun and you are not. Am I on the right track?

[Summerhater]

yes - you are right. I think I just feel a bit lost around the holidays (:

[RS1974]

Hello 👋 I've never heard of what you are talking about. Very unique though.Welcome to the group 😊

[Summerhater in reply to RS1974]

I am weird (: when it’s dark and cold I am actually in my element! I think it’s a combo of summer and it being Christmas time!!! Thank you for welcoming - such a good group!