Anxiety for over 20 years.

[Mindloss]

I have been in really bad shape with this debilitating anxiety. Nothing seems to work. I have tried just about everything. So one day I decided to get my journals out and I started them in 2009. I went on my computer and decided to start writing them in Word. I am on 2012 writings and I can't believe what I am reading. I am actually going through the same thing with anxiety and depression that I am today. All of those years with this. How did I live like that for all those years ? Well I am at a loss. I am never going to get better. What is the use of living like this anymore. I am very tired. Every morning I get up with suicidal idealation. It goes away after a couple hours but those couple hours are hell. I am just so scared that I will be like this forever. I can't do or live like this.

[Agora1]

Mindloss, what you are feeling is a negative energy that arises each day due to hormonal

imbalance of Adrenaline & Costisol.The fact that you start feeling a little better in a couple

of hours, proves this. Upon awakening comes the thoughts of what the day may hold,

bringing about fear and stress. This is very normal for the anxious person. If we give it

power to exist, it tries to break us down and our day feels hopeless and ruined.

If we ignore the feeling present in our mind, since that is where these lies originate, we

have the power to turn negativity into positivity. And as the saying goes, we get what

we think.

This doesn't have to be a lifelong crisis. Never give up your right in living and not just

existing. It's going to be okay. You are Okay. Most of all, You Are Safe. xx

[Agora1]

Mindloss, as a lay person, I can only relate to my own journey in that anxiety doesn't have

to be a lifetime event. The negative thoughts that we think and feel everyday procreate

a hopelessness and doubt that we are trapped forever by this entity called Anxiety.

By thinking this way, we leave the door open each and every day for negativity to reside.

The evidence that as the day goes on for you, you tend to start feeling better. That is a

sign that the door is cracked open some in letting positivity in. As our mind awakens from

yesterday's problems, we tend to feel a small sense of euphoria in the present moment. xx

[Franklin68]

Severe anxiety struck in 1995 . Found the correct combinations of meds, especially dosages ,20 years later and with the meditation, therapy, etc techniques added in, well I’m pretty much symptom free.

I believe that many of us need the correct meds to connect those frayed wires.

I felt pretty much like you

Please keep trying. Maybe someone or place more aggresive.

Yes, it can be scary or extremely frustrating but what choice do we have really

[blimpsgo180]

Hi Mindloss. Saying things like "I am never going to get better" becomes a self-fulfilling prophesy. You gotta believe in yourself more. I found a lot of help in acceptance and commitment therapy, where you live the life you want to live regardless of whether you have anxiety or not. Something I'd really like to do is take a vacation to a place I've never been before, so I'm planning for that, because it's part of the life I want to live.

There is a strong dietary connection to anxiety. I have had success cutting back on meat (I now don't eat any meat, dairy, or eggs), and increasing fruit and vegetable consumption. I actually lost about 40 pounds, and am now only about 6 pounds overweight. Physical aerobic exercise helps too.

Please believe in yourself. Sometimes it's just nice to wake up and see the sun shining.

[Jerewill]

I'm in the same boat and it sucks so hard. I barely can make myself go to work. Other than that I stay home. I'm friends with everyone but I never hang out with them. I really can't believe there's nothing that works. Xanax was helping but I kept having to raise the dosage. I had to get it from Mexico because nobody would prescribe it. Then I tried to stop and I ended up in the hospital with hallucinations. I give up!