I Feel Like I’m Over Life. *Trigger Warning*

[bxgirlmom]

Throughout my life I’ve struggled with mental illness. Last week I had the worst panic attack ever. I’m self harming again. Seeing things . Hearing voices. Can’t tell dreams from reality. I have two daughters I know they would suffer immensely without me. My grandmother would probably die from a broken heart. But I’m tired. Playing ring around the Rosie with my prescriptions and not getting anywhere. I feel like I have worms in my brain. My husband and sister get upset and call me selfish for thinking this way. My mother says I genetically suffer from these issues from my father’s side (she takes a jab at him anyway she can). My psychiatrist is going to start me on Ambilify; praying for the best. I don’t know how long I can do this.

[Starrlight]

You are not alone. I know, I’m tired too. Had horrible feelings today it felt like a dream and have had a hard time ever since I can remember. Like you, I stay for my kids and to not hurt others. I find that therapy really helps me feel more grounded and cared for. Are you in therapy? My heart goes out to you; sounds like a very difficult time for you. You are strong. Please keep writing if it helps.

💛⭐️

[bxgirlmom in reply to Starrlight]

Hey ! Yes I see a psychiatrist weekly and we try to work through my issues and see what medications work best. It’s throughout the day is when I struggle the most so we’re trying really hard to find the right combination to help me.

[Starrlight in reply to bxgirlmom]

That’s great that you and your psych team are working hard… I hope you find the best med combo. Stay strong, beautiful.

[bxgirlmom in reply to Starrlight]

Same to you !! Thank u so much 💜

[Shnookie]

First of call, Please call 988 the Suicide Prevention Hotline. U R so brave to have come to HU. We R here to support you.

[Starrlight in reply to Shnookie]

I’m glad you gave this info.

[Shnookie in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you very much. I know people who have called them when they R very depressed and they were helpful.

[bxgirlmom in reply to Shnookie]

Thank you so much and yes they have helped me several times in the past they are awesome.

[bxgirlmom in reply to Shnookie]

Also thank you for your kind words 💜

[KCBrooke]

I hope your new medication gives you the relief you need 🤍 Stay strong. Sending prayers to you.

[bxgirlmom in reply to KCBrooke]

Thank you !! Praying that it does !!

[bxgirlmom]

Thank you friend. I could definitely use some new friendships.

[bxgirlmom]

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