Another horrible morning. I went to forest up state. It was so beautiful. I want my last day to be in place like that.All my interactions with people have blown up in my face.
My gut really bothering me now 7 years of agravation and little help from mental health system.
Im old and worn out now. Someone i knew just passed away. A real talanted nice guy.
He was well liked. Had a big memorial. He deserved a long life.
Me, I wish I could join him.
I am sorry for your loss and I am sorry for your suffering.
please call 988 - Suicide Prevention hotline
I am sorry life is so bad for you.
I am not downplaying your pain or anything but on reading your post I found myself sad and nostalgic because my getting out and about days are over now. Would love to be able to get to a forest or somewhere nice like that.
I didn't appreciate my good physical health while I had it and now I can barely walk and use a mobility scooter.
Its a positive for you that you can so its not all bad is it. It helps to try and see the positive in things as well as the negatives so appreciate your mobility while you can.
Think of all the things you still have rather than dwell so much on those you don't. In other words looking inwards is not helpful to you, but looking outwards is.
We all have things to be grateful for and that is where achieving a balance leads to a more peaceful life.
I'm sorry you lost someone. Please reach out to a hotline or some other resource to get the help you need. I hope things are better soon.
You will join him sooner or later, as we all will. No need to rush it.
Well in the for what it's worth department I care....world is a better place with you here
One of those days 
One of those nights
No one talks of Isolating yourself 
Help. Anxiety is unmanageable and feel I cant move forward.
I think im sinking again
