Anxiety/Depression

[brandyfoley123]

I have anxiety and depression and right now I am on something for anxiety that helps about 60% of the time, but currently on nothing for depression due to it causing my aggression to increase. Any recommendations on what to try for depression? I am in therapy currently. I am also an addict in recovery, I am not very sensitive when it comes to medications. Most the time there is no affect or change in my behavior. I also wanted to see if anyone else feels how I feel....Its like I don't want to be here but I don't want to go off myself either. Like this world sucks, I didn't ask to be here. That is a huge reason I choose to not have kids why would I bring a child into a world I don't even want to be part of. Again before everyone starts telling me how to get help or to text a crisis line, I'm not in danger of harming myself, I am merely trying to find the point. We get up everyday and do the same thing get up, go to work, come home take care of the kids, house, animals, ect. go to sleep, take a shower if you have the energy and wake up and do it again and again. What is the point of this? If I change it I cannot pay my bills, I have to go to work not saying that staying home in my depression spiral is the answer but what else is there to do?

I apologize ahead of time if that makes no sense...Thank you Anxiety!!

[TailWags]

I feel like i wouldnt care much if i died. I too have no inclination to off myself, but life just hasnt been much fun for a while. I started cbd oil for anxiety and plan to try amoino acids for depression. Been on regular meds for years. Anyhow, i wonder if i got diagnosed with something life threatening or something if it would snap me out of it. I dont think i would want to be diagnosed with a serious illness, so I suspect I really would care.

[brandyfoley123 in reply to TailWags]

Yea I should have put in there I smoke everyday....I wish that would help and I truly do not care if I was diagnosed with a serious illness better me than someone else I guess. I do get the not wanting to be here but not willing to end my life either situation.