After the events I described in my latest posts, I didn't text anything. I am planning on skipping the goodnight text that we usually send eachother when we go to sleep (to inform the other one to not send to many texts) unless he texts something first.
I am not sure if I will reply tomorrow if he had sended me texts during the night. Maybe I will wait until the afternoon.
good start
Hi sad_watermelon. It is very hard when serious relationships end. VERY HARD. I found that I would always daydream about the person I had been dating until I went on dates with a new person. It was just the way it was and what my brain could default to I guess. I think I read that you are moving to attend university or something, and I am sure that distance will make things easier. I would recommend asking someone on a date, or if you don't feel comfortable doing that see if someone can set you up on a double date or something just to get back out there and meeting new people, it doesn't have to be serious.
Give yourself plenty of time and room to grieve the relationship that is over, and understand that it will be in the front of your mind until other relationships or things develop in your life. That is okay. It is over though, and I think it is great that you recognized that there were differences between the two of you that made it so the relationship was not worth continuing. I wish you the best in your journey ☮️
The problem is that I'm really "picky" and I get very hardly in a relationship. I am so depressed right now that I am sure that I won't ever have a relationship again. At least not a lasting one. I don't want to suffer again. My ex wasn't right for me. I don't feel like anyone will. I don't want to be hurt. My feelings are really messy.
I'm sorry sad_watermelon, feeling hopeless is the worst emotion I think we can experience. I hope that you can see that you were in a relationship once you can be again. I think it is good to recognize that you are picky too, that means you can understand yourself. You are also very young, finding a partner is no easy task, but you have a lot of time. I would advise having fun, even if that means hundreds of first dates that go nowhere, you can learn what you like and don't and maybe where you might change.
Finding a lasting relationship does mean heartbreak along the way... but I think it is worth and each one gets a little easier, though they all hurt. 😬☮️
Slowly losing faith again…
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