Now that my ex boyfriend is a friend, I really miss only one thing - feeling love. To love somebody and feel loved by them. I don't have any romantic feelings for him, don't get me wrong. But we ended things on good terms and I haven't deleted all pictures and screenshots from the conversations. When I see all the good words he told me, all the hugs he gave me, that's what I miss.
I just want to text someone who will be exited to text me, who will tell me something nice, who will call me sweet names that will make me smile....
Of course I can survive by myself, but there is so much warmth in pure love, something so beautiful and it's like drugs - life before love seems great, but when love comes, it becomes even better and when love is gone, life is the same as before, but you feel like it's bad, like you need love to feel good again.
Also my ex started doing "hurting" jokes after we broke up. When we separated he said he's not feeling bad at all, but I cried a few days and it's normal. So I guess these jokes aren't a kind of way to ignore feelings...