ok, had it and ive been up 3 hours....

[jackiesj]

as i say, when at end of rope tie a knot in the bottom climb up. i forgot to say more knots on the rope....abusive atmosphere i cant leave..MS and in bed. the worse i am the worse he is. Ive tried sleeping in the day and awake at night and actually it helps stress. doc appointments dont work this way.I realized i am soooooo exhausted mentally. Now my sidekick pup has a torn ACL and my other sidekick broke a tooth{hehad 3}.... i think the idea of the straw that broke the camels back. Yes theres probably tomarrow but we live in here and now. its ok not to be ok... maybe sleeping in day was not the best...but a good try...i seem ungrateful and really i do lnow i am blessed beyond...but wanna give up.