Today's my Birthday

[ashleybakerr01]

And I'm just flooded with horrible memories of what I went through when losing my babies .. and I just don't really feel appreciated 😞. I've been up most the night upset over the memories and flashbacks and can't seem to shake them

[Dolphin14]

Happy Birthday 🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

You've had some tough times recently

How are you physically feeling?

Can you do something nice for yourself today?

🐬

[Stilltrying2]

Hello ashleybakerr01,

I am sorry that you are feeling such pain on your birthday. It sounds like you have been through a lot. This community is here to support you. I hope you can find some peace in your day. Please take care of yourself and try to find a way to do something special to celebrate you. Wishing you a peaceful birthday.

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Stilltrying2]

Thank you. Ive found too much peace in being alone again..I'm starting to stay in my room alot more again and people are noticing and that's what I hate the most. Because when asked what's wrong, I truly don't have the words to say or know what to say

[Stilltrying2 in reply to ashleybakerr01]

It can be hard to express our pain. It leaves us feeling vulnerable when we expose it. Do you have anyone you can trust to listen to what you are going through?

[MetalEnjoyer in reply to ashleybakerr01]

I understand that. When people ask me about my past it locks me up. Suddenly I'm just staring like I'm looking through them. Maybe you could take the time to put it into words? Maybe think about telling someone about it. It might help being able to express that. It did for me. Some experiences are truly hard to explain. But finding words for them might help.

I'm sorry Ashley. I truly am 💗. I don't think I could understand how it feels with loss like that. I hope I never have too. Please treat yourself. Make yourself a nice dinner. Or spend some time with friends. You deserve a nice birthday.

Happy birthday 🎂

Matt

[blackcat64013]

Hi Ashleybakerr01,I am sorry that your birthday triggers such sorrow.

Please give yourself some special time to reflect on what your arrival has meant in the positive sense for so many people.

When you are ready, know that working through the grief, in your own time, will release some of pain.

In the meantime, 🫂 and 💜 to you 🐈‍⬛

[Arymretep]

Wishing you a peaceful birthday , you are so young so don’t give up on your dream , take care 😘

[Mohammad-341]

I can feel ur pain and agony. . May Allah helps u to overcome the pain and give u ur wish

[Agora1]

Dearest ashleybakerr01, on this special day, I celebrate you.

Happy Birthday! You are cared about xx

[BorachioHatpeg]

Happy birthday! I'm sorry today is attached to so much pain for you. The holiday season is like that for me as that's when I lost my babies. I can tell you from experience that the hurt will always be there but it gets easier to get through each and every year. I used to spend that time mourning and now it's more about remembering. ❤️

[Agora1 in reply to BorachioHatpeg]

I'm sorry for your losses BorachioHatpeg xx

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

Happy birthday from me to you.

It's hard when your day isn't special anymore because of traumas. Losing your babies is unimaginable tragedy. Do never quite get over it. You just get better at carry it.

Maybe take the time you spend in your room and reflect and write it down in a journal. Put whatever you remember and feel down to paper. Maybe that can help organize your thoughts and feelings a little better. That way when folks ask you what wrong you can tell them. And also you can ask for a certain kind of help from them.

That important to asking for help but certain kind of help. Because not everything is helpful. Some people may have the best intentions and what to help but can cause you pain and grief. You don't want that.

Anyways happy birthday even though I know you don't feel much like celebrating. But I want to take the time to acknowledge your existence.

Wishing you healing and peace 🫂 ❤️