At absolute rock bottom

[Frub]

Hi folks!

I've been a part of this community for quite a while, and yet somehow this is my very first post here. I've been struggling mentally, and it's only getting worse with time.

I was working for a good MNC last year, but had to quit within 4 months of joining it since the company culture was toxic to the T. The toxicity was draining me, and I simply couldn't take it. I've struggled with mental health all my life. Had a car accident which left visible scars on my face when I was 12 years old, and still somehow reeling with it, since I got bullied and made fun of, for a few years post that.

I'm an Indian, and the recession has left a large chunk of the youth jobless. I haven't found anything for the past 9 months and it just feels like time is running out for me. I'm almost out of money and my girlfriend is the one who is taking care of me right now. I do not let her make expenses on my part, but yet it feels like I'm not building towards my or her future at all. My mother is a single parent and has single handedly raised me since I was 3 years old. I can't tell her anything about my situation since I know she'll break down, and she has already gone through enough in her life.

What should I do? Time's simply running out and it feels like things are just going downhill for me.

Will I ever see the light at the end of the tunnel?

I'm at my absolute worst right now and I just wish this pain would stop.

[gajh]

I am sorry you are suffering. I care. I am glad you are here posting.

[Frub in reply to gajh]

Thank you!

I thought nobody was replying/cared enough cause I'm an Indian.

Have faced such discrimination everywhere online, hence.

[gajh in reply to Frub]

Oh no I am so sorry you thought that. Some posts just get missed when there are a lot. Please feel free to post more. Please don't take it personal. There are people here from all over. You are more than Welcome.

[Vonus5591]

Go to companies and ask them what they want in skills and interests or how they got job. It will help if you build your skills with short course or practical training. Asking about opening and company places you in good light with company. Sometimes they just looking for enthusiasm and someone young to train. Keep asking/talking to everyone till you find right company or position for yourself. I don't know your qualifications or skills. But you should be able to sell yourself and youtube videos on interviews will help Also research the company or go in person and ask