I want to scream but i don't even have energy to. Hopeless

[Against_the_current]

I need either a new home with someone to take care of me and the place, new therapist and new meds or to be sh0t. It's fundamentally wrong with me. It's getting hotter and depression and irritability are through the roof. Also having zero friends out of screen and mom, of course mom

[hypercat54]

Can you ask to be taken in a psychiatric hospital as that's the only place I can think of who will look after you.

[CLB1125]

the best thing for you right now I think is to go to a doctor, phycologist or a psychiatrist. Someone who understands what you are going through. They will have the tools to help you get the help you need. My heart is with you.

[Kitsune-Udon]

Change doesn't come from others, it comes from within. You've decided you are hopeless. You've decided you cannot care for yourself. You are the one saying the bad things about you. Nothing is going to change for you as long as that's the stance you take. We all need a little help sometimes, I cannot deny that as I've lived it. But ultimately you have to believe in you and your value. We all know you have it. In that sense you are no different from any one of us here.

Stop letting the outside factors that you cannot control, control you. Medication can assist but it won't cure you. It's a band-aid. No therapist is going to be able to hold you accountable. They can help you talk through things but in the end if you don't do the things they suggest or you don't use the tools given, then no one can force you too. True change has to come from within.

Look back at our messages and use the tools mentioned. What you are doing now isn't working. So why not give those tools/methods everything you have? Worst case, you are right back where you started. Best case, You save yourself and grow as a person. You become resilient to the negative and start to see the positive in life. Kick that rumination to curb. Deny the poison being thrown at you. You are the savior you need.

You are worthy of peace, love, kindness, and happiness. You will have to fight for it though. It won't just land in your lap. There is no miracle cure out there. It's in you. It all starts with mindset. It's no easy road, but nothing truly of worth is simply handed to us. You can do this and I truly hope you decide to.

[SoporRose]

I can't think of anything to say that the others have not said more eloquently than I could. I'll only add that you have my support.