A Deeper Look?

[Garrett30]

I think some of us have made little improvements here and there....but does anyone else think that in order to self develop or become successful that something big needs to happen, a major change...that is of course up to you and only you. There is this feeling of eagerness and nervousness, fear, worry that...at least for me I see videos of people who say "come on this journey with me to becoming a completely different version of myself in 30 days" Or you look around and it looks like people really are so far along in their journey at least for me in San Diego, lots my age (23-30 range) seem to have a lot figured out. I look around and they are living, conversations seem light, fun, energetic. Here I am 29 years old knowing that everyone is at their own pace, their own journey but shoot my mind is in a pretty dark place. In order to grow and change....we need to get off our butts, we get it, but we over analyze, and again some of us have made little improvements (fixing a bike and riding a lot, working out 4 days a week, eating whole foods, (not the store), reading a little more) but THIS DEEPER LOOK this thought of a big change or improvement....where we MUST....I guess...take a step back and take a deeper look into our lives, what we're doing and how we're doing it, this revolving door of life that we've created which has caused me to for as long as I remember cut myself off to others at a certain point, not letting others in, feeling like I know nothing and have no knowledge/opinion on any subjects, not feeling passion for much and trying to figure that out, not socially awkward but let's say when it's your turn to speak or someone asks you a question, you can't seem to talk about yourself with confidence because it is this revolving door of not accomplishing anything quite yet or not having any money saved right now lol....this is a long rant but I am looking for some input, advice, where someone really has come from no money, they know they need to start to learn, build knowledge, chip away, and stick with it but what that experience has looked like. Because as soon as I feel like I sort of know what needs to get done or needs to happen, seconds later I slip into a literal feeling of fear, worry, therefore nothing changes for a while. Thank you and appreciate this medium, this site where I can "journal" and hope for some advice and feedback.

[Agora1]

You know Garrett30, nothing in life comes easy. We must work at it in order to go forward.

Does something big have to happen to us for us to change? Yes... We need to start

changing the way we think and what we believe as well as to accept anxiety and not fight

it. While going through this transformation, I too pulled away from family and friends so

that I could work on myself, for myself. After all, people who have not experienced

what we have, cannot possibly truly understand what we go through.

At the beginning in starting changes, it's all about 4 steps forward 2 back. We may even

fall at times and want to give up. But we can't. Once we give up, we may stay stuck

perpetuating the cycle of fear. We must always go forward in order to reach our goal.

You took your first step forward today by coming on this forum.

Together with our support and life experiences, you will find something that may

help you as well. If anything, know that you are not alone. It can all work out in time.

It did for me and I am here to pass my success forward xx