feeling silly

[apr06]

i have been struggling with hypervigilant mind ever since childhood and i am still struggling to express my emotional needs until now.

my parents came to my house just a day ago, they visited me because i got into a hospital and they still accompany me post hospitalization, but i somehow still chocked when i try to tell them i've been anxious for years. they probably already realized and they can only gives me courage, but i don't think its as simple as that. i know its just me being overly needy or whatever but i simply find it hard to keep on struggling alone, i feel so out of support and ready to give up anytime.

i hear my thought everyday telling me i have serious illness and i am incapable of getting through it and it feels draining, i cant be always just stay strong and sit with the uncomfortable feeling and sensation every day and night. i just want to feel better.

[Dolphin14]

Welcome to the community

Communication can be very difficult. Sometimes we carry guilt and shame with our diagnosis.

Unfortunately it's very hard to get support unless we make an attempt to reach out.

Have you read any articles on what you are struggling with? Maybe if you send an article to your parents first asking them to read and be open to a discussion.

I don't think you are being over needy

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