it never ends

[deea21]

its been almost 10 years since I had problems, I’ve done meditation, therapy, I lost weight, I look good now but I don’t feel it. I’m still in the same dark era, getting the same feelings from a different partner and I finally understood that no matter what I will end in in the same place…. The pain never ends. We just live not to die!!!

[Sunrisetabby]

Congratulations on losing and keeping off weight - that is a big accomplishment! I am also glad that you are happy with how you look. Everything is changing all the time, and I am sure that the therapy and meditation changed you, even if you don't realize it yet - everything matters. Why do you think that no matter what you will end up in the same place? I respectfully disagree that that is something to understand, instead that seems more like a limiting belief that is holding you back. You have been changing and you will continue to change. Things absolutely can get better. Find what makes you happy and do it. If you feel stuck you need to look someplace else. You should live to live and figure out how to transform your pain.

[cashew78]

Hello, can definitely sympathize... I've been trying for 30 years. I can't offer much but the one idea that keeps me going...-ish. If you change the scenery, you change yourself a little. If you keep changing the scenery over time (even if only a little), you're traveling, and that changes your mind and what you can perceive. I keep getting tossed back into bad places too, but have started to notice more and how to navigate them sometimes... I'm hoping I can keep navigating out of them, but know it takes time each time it happens. Maybe I can help those times happen less and less... because they're draining.