sometimes....

[mizzou7016]

when I have downtime at work.....in addition to keeping up with my HU family and offering support.....I find articles that help me learn more about how my brain works....came across some articles

ojp.gov/pdffiles1/nij/30821...

psychologytoday.com/intl/ar...

psychologytoday.com/intl/bl...

[Ellamaye]

Aw you said HU family... I like that .. I'm starting to think that too x

[mizzou7016 in reply to Ellamaye]

Sorry....I'm literally and figuratively in prison for 30 more minutes today......this is an escape for me....helps me when i help others

[Ellamaye in reply to mizzou7016]

I just had to Google figuratively lol what kind of prison?

[Ellamaye in reply to mizzou7016]

It does help to help others I totally agree on that point 👍

[mizzou7016 in reply to Ellamaye]

I'm a corrections officer in a state level maximum security prison.....going on 26 years....on the last 9 months of my "sentence". was watching the offenders take their meds and insulin shots....ready for the day to be over

[Ellamaye in reply to mizzou7016]

So you work there? Your not in there?I take it you don't enjoy your job?

Wow though 26 years in that environment? You must be one badass.

I bet you have some stories to tell?

[mizzou7016 in reply to Ellamaye]

let's just say that I am ready to move on to something else...something less stressful....I started this job when I was 26....I am now 53.....I've been through a lot in the last 26 years....it's not that I don't like my job...it's just not the same as it was...tired.....in more ways than 1

[SwimmerBTC in reply to mizzou7016]

Respect this, well done!

[mizzou7016 in reply to Ellamaye]

and the figurative part is that I am a prisoner of my own mind....suffer from depression, anxiety, and ptsd

[Ellamaye in reply to mizzou7016]

I respect you even more. I'm sure you have to show no emotion when doing your job while dealing with the internal struggle x Always here to listen xx

[mizzou7016 in reply to Ellamaye]

And it gers harder not to the longer you do it. I've always kept it professional but it's not hard to get emotional when you've dealt someone for 25+ years...no matter what the environment is..

[Ellamaye in reply to mizzou7016]

I can sort of relate I did home care work for 8 years and to begin with was full of ..I'm going to make a difference in people's lives.. at the end I was emotionally dead with nothing left to give. Luckily I was blessed with my son which prompted a change in my life and me leaving the job. I hope you make you change before it grinds you down too much x

[mizzou7016 in reply to Ellamaye]

Kinda already has...luckily my heart is still soft