NOT Suicidal Just Anxious and a little bit Depressed

[RayofhopeJC]

I'm a happy go lucky person worked at the same place for eight years, I loved my job. I got sick and became disabled. I lost my job, I went from seeing and talking to maybe a hundred a day to seeing and talking to maybe one or two people a day. I just kept getting even more sick . But I have JESUS, HE is my Savior no matter what! I got depressed but not too bad I just needed time to adjust. I had pneumonia, bronchitis, heart congestion failure, Copd, Neuropathy, Siotica, bad Arthritis and lumbar issues. Who wouldn't be depressed?! Later on I started to get chills and fever then my body would ache all over, like I was getting sick bad , the Flu , Pneumonia, something This would last ten minutes then it would just stop the it start again and last longer, it was getting worse. I saw a Rheumatologist and was diagnosed with some kind of Lupus I was prescribed a medicine which has helped. Now lately I've been getting those same symptoms again. Ugh!!! But also I get anxious and I can't sleep. Sometimes I start to panic. I start to think Oh no, Not again! Is this ever gonna stop? What do I do? Have done something wrong? Am I being punished for something I did. What though? I'm living good, no drinking, no smoking, nor drugs. So why? Why am I feeling this way? Is it gonna get worse because this is pretty bad. I try every over the counter medicine But, to no avail. I live alone which makes it worse! I can talk to a few friends and family but they have their own family and at night they have to go to sleep to work the next day and that's when my anxiety really kicks in. I Never have any suicidal thoughts it's nothing like that! I Love myself and just wish I could get back to the normal Because I have a lot to offer to people. I like to make and see people Happy. I Love to cook and bake for my friends and family. I sew, crochet and I do lots of other crafts and give them out to people as a trinket of Thankfulness or encouragement that it'll get better or just a small gesture of appreciation. Either way Thanks so much for reading this and if you've been through something similar or have any suggestions Please post it. GOD Bless and Be with you in JESUS name Always!💗

[this-roxx]

I’m sorry to hear that ! I hope you’re a bit feeling better now-sounds like you sure were sick!

[RayofhopeJC in reply to this-roxx]

Thank you so much, I am better I'm just worried that this anxiety is going to kick in , I won't be able to sleep for days and it's a terrible feeling! I wouldn't wish this on anyone.