things I worry

[Huami]

A month or 2 ago I was worried as I am a failure who couldn't success and not having a good pay job. (without a job I am not thinking of a marriage or another relationship.) Now anyway i have resigned from my job. but I feel so much fear about my plans. before resign I had a good plan but now I have stucked.

other than that the place I worked last didnt treat me well and I feel so guilty about me after I have done everything to them. I know I have messed up a little bit. but believe me i didnt care how much i burn I did everything better before I leave.

now i want to be happy. but I cant forget that place and conversation, people who judged me without knowing my story. I feel so sorry for me. May be its anger. But that makes me a fear that stucks me.

the only thing currently I am doing is watching videos on youtube and fb. And some help to my mom. I know I am 31, I need to be grown up. eventhough I tried its so hard. please help me.

[Rafael_]

It's ok to feel frustrated, but putting everything on your shoulders and conforming isn't going to make you feel happy. You have to remember that your own self is very important and if you feel like people are judging you for not doing well despite your circumstances, it's better to step back and value your own emotions. It's a very great thing that you are continuing your own apprenticeship, but that'll lead to some self destruction if you aren't able to love your own self.

[Huami in reply to Rafael_]

thank you. I am trying change my career in to software field. which will be reduce contacts with individuals.

[Rafael_ in reply to Huami]

That's great, hopefully you are able to find a job that's more healthy. Good luck, and feel great being able to pursue your own career path