Anxious and don't know why

[secrets22]

I seem to go from a feeling of euphoria to a sudden downturn of a feeling of dread and despair.

I try to analyze why i suddenly get these feelings of dread, but i do think a lot of the cause is worrying, for i do worry about everything even if things are going well,and at those times i feel something bad is bound to happen, which usually it doesn't.

Its like walking a tightrope with no safety harness and so i fall into the abyss with no way of escape possible.

And so i finally crawl out of the self-imposed hole I find myself in, feeling totally exhausted and worthless.

Although, on reflection i believe my troubles stem right back to my childhood , being bullied, and then trying to prove that i was worthy, plus i was terribly shy , which i still am to a point.

Our early years are often quite damaging ,and that damage often stays with us for life.

[Sandpiper14]

Hi I’m sorry you feel like this. Are you able to seek therapy? I know it’s expensive/ long waiting list if you’re reliant on a public health service. There are many support groups out there that can help you work through your issues and it seems like it would benefit you.

Importantly, you’re not alone in these feelings. Many of us here feel these too and they are very often irrational. It’s a good starting point to jot them down so you have something to work through.

I hope you return to feeling yourself soon

[secrets22 in reply to Sandpiper14]

I've had therapy in the past and frankly it increased my anxiety beyond measure.

[AnxiousSilver]

For me, I was officially diagnosed with Severe GAD (along with Panic attacks and moderate depression) many years ago.

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I'm not a medical professional, but "if" you are a chronic worrier, then you may have a little bit of GAD too.

[secrets22 in reply to AnxiousSilver]

i think you could be right, its like an all-enveloping wave sweeps over me.

[BlueAgave]

This past year I will have several really great days, then BAM! I'm so anxious and worried I can't do anything. And it seems like it's week to week almost. I'm in therapy and on meds, but I'll be honest on my good days I don't do the things my therapist says I need to do to keep the anxiety down because I feel so good. Anyone else struggle with this?

[secrets22 in reply to BlueAgave]

oh yes, on my good days i neglect to do the things i should do to keep on track.

[BlueAgave in reply to secrets22]

Yay, I'm not the only one!

[secrets22]

yes it is totally exhausting,

[secrets22]

yes it is totally exhausting.