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[PeaceNeed]

I was intelligent maybe could have done something with my life. Between my disfunctional family and extreme bullying I didnt develope right. Im stuck in the past and terrified of the future.

[MarileeKemp]

I couldn’t have said it better myself, trapped in the past and terrified of the future. I like to think I’m intelligent, I did great in school, but anxiety and depression spoiled most of that for me. I’m currently trying to find ways to ground myself in the present and the best one so far has been exercise. It can really help clear your head.

[MarileeKemp]

I could have written so much of this post about my own life.

[PeaceNeed in reply to MarileeKemp]

Your not stupid ...Ive been oblivious for years ....IM STUPID!!!!!

[MarileeKemp]

Feel free to reach out if you like, I check on here fairly regularly

[Thankfulforhelp22]

There’s still time and hope.

God bless you.

[PeaceNeed]

Im stuck emotionally. I couldnt maintain jobs or positive relationships. You at least have children.....Im alone. If I live long enough....and I hope I dont.....I may end up alone and homeless. Ive screwed up my housing situation . Every where I walk now is so different. Places I used to live are unrecognizable. I dont know what else to say . I keep on having cring fits...howling into a pillow like a wounded animal.

[plaganon5]

I know how you feel. I often feel like i lost a part of myself to depression and anxiety a long time ago. It can get a little better with time but you need to build a new you and leave the old in the past. I threw away a good future because of my depression, so i know it can hurt bad to think about.

[PeaceNeed in reply to plaganon5]

I threw away mine to and to top it off I had second chance to have a future and blew it again. Now Im 64 I hope I dont make it to 65.

[PeaceNeed]

Ive called a few times....dont help. No where to turn to. I did alot of this to myself no insight into my behavior....just like a child....one of my psychs said ....i was emotionally stuck at a real young age. (He also said he didnt want any permenant patients).

[PeaceNeed]

The system only works if u have alot of money. i dont. I live in the worst place in the world to be mentally ill.......NYC