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Spirit19
Spirit19

I’m so tired of feeling the way I do it’s makes me so angry I hate myself I don’t deserve anything why am I here ? I can’t stand the constant mood changes I’m happy then mad or sad for no reason . I hate it ... my anxiety keeps me from driving , I can’t be around my family because I’m always laying in bed . When does it end? Will it ever .... sigh ;(

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Hidden
Hidden

It isn't going to change unless you do something to make it change....I'm sure you know the options.

Spirit19
Spirit19 in reply to Hidden

I’ve been depressed for so long I don’t know anything else ...

ellinaki
ellinaki in reply to Spirit19

Look for something else... anything..

Spirit19
Spirit19 in reply to ellinaki

Being depressed is comforting to me i always have my guard up.

ellinaki
ellinaki in reply to Spirit19

Me too...maybe we have our guards up too high...

Spirit19
Spirit19 in reply to ellinaki

I just don’t know what to do I feel like my brain is broken

ellinaki
ellinaki in reply to Spirit19

Cause your going round and round..step out and you'll see..let's let our guards down abit yeah?

Spirit19
Spirit19 in reply to ellinaki

If I do something will happen :(

ellinaki
ellinaki in reply to Spirit19

Like what

Spirit19
Spirit19 in reply to ellinaki

I don’t know I’m just paranoid something will happen ...;( I hate myself

fauxartist
fauxartist in reply to Spirit19

sometimes our pain is all we know... so we are afraid of change because in our past .... we never had any control over what had happened to us as kids... and we fear change... so we are willing to stay stuck and in a bad situation because at least we know what we are dealing with... but trusting in ourself that we will only do what we are comfortable with. small steps... knowing we are going to have to take that risk if we want to get better...we can plan for it..... if we want this pain to stop .... then we have to change what we are doing....

Spirit19
Spirit19 in reply to fauxartist

I don’t know what I’m doing ...:(

I'm there for ya anytime you want to talk brotha.....I'm sorry your going through the pain.

Hidden
Hidden

I’m so sorry that you’re going through this. I know exactly how you feel. You’re here for a reason. Even if you don’t know what that reason is yet. You are a human being with a beating heart on this planet. Do you feel your heart beating? That’s purpose. Take it one minute at a time. Do things that bring you some sort of comfort or joy, even if it’s fleeting. Please don’t ever give up. I am always here for you if you need to talk. Stay strong xo.

Why do you hate yourself? Is it your fault? Is it a character defect or a weakness in you? Or is it a random illness which can often strike out of the blue? I think it would definitely help you to stop using such destructive emotive language about yourself. If this was happening to your best friend or partner would you hate them? No you wouldn't.

Are you having counselling etc? x

Hidden
Hidden

Do you have someone you can talk to in person? I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I know what you're feeling. I think it's good to take some baby steps like go for a walk for 10 minutes. Get some fresh air if you don't feel like taking a walk. Every little bit helps. <3

Spirit19
Spirit19 in reply to Hidden

I’m in therapy I talk to my psychiatrist more than my therapist ... I shut down when I talk to my therapist .

Hidden
Hidden in reply to Spirit19

Why do you think that happens? Do you think you need a new therapist?

Spirit19
Spirit19 in reply to Hidden

Because I hate therapy and I’m to dependent on medication ...

makes me hate myself

Hidden
Hidden in reply to Spirit19

I'm sorry to hear that. Is the medication not helping?

Spirit19
Spirit19 in reply to Hidden

The only medication that helps is the klonopin ... I just want to give up I’m tired of being emotionally numb ...

Hidden
Hidden in reply to Spirit19

Oh, I get that feeling. I'm still living with it! Maybe do something you enjoy in the comfort of your room? Or working out. That always makes me feel good.

Spirit19
Spirit19 in reply to Hidden

I feel so helpless ...

Hidden
Hidden in reply to Spirit19

I'm so sorry. Take it one day at a time. Baby steps. If you need someone to talk to, you can always send me a message. I hope and pray you get out of this.

Spirit19
Spirit19 in reply to Hidden

My mind is stable and I feel like I deserve to be in a psych hospital again

Spirit19
Spirit19 in reply to Spirit19

Isn’t

Hidden
Hidden in reply to Spirit19

Take some deep calming breaths. Hopefully that will help your mind slow down.

Hi Spirit 19. Yes, things can change. Do a little bit every day, like I've told you before. Walk for 5 minutes. Get a little sun for 10 minutes, then get in the shade. Nature helps. There are many other things you can do. Even if you can't do 5 minutes of something, you can start with one minute. The thing is, you have to start.

I’m so sorry you are going through this. Please know that we are here and we care for you. You are not alone. I pray that you will not lose hope. Whenever you need someone to talk to, please don’t hesitate to post. I hope you will find the support you need through this forum.

Try to do things that you will enjoy and I hope you will feel better soon. I will be praying for you. Take care and I hope you will remain hopeful.

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