Have someone of you have seen something that gave you that feeling of joy. ?
Let me talk a bit about me.
Every single day is a huge battle for me. I wake up very tired because I can't rest when I sleep. My anxiety is getting high because I have go go work and my job is a place that causes me a lot of stress and anxiety. I get depressed because I have to do this every day and I can't find that good feeling of living my life or that happiness that I know that I had before. I have my kid with depression and anxiety too and I have to be his strong figure to teach him how to handle his life and to help him when he starts to feel an episode os anxiety or stress. It is a huge feeling for me of being incompetent because I can barely handle my depression and anxiety. The guilt spreads in my chest and head because sometimes I don't do a good work helping him. I still continue with my daily routine. The sadness is almost always inside me. Half of the time my depression is bigger than me.
But there is one little incident that I really loved to see once. That situation was like a little drop of happiness, hope and love that fell in my head and in my heart. Just that little detail made to fade away all that bad feelings that I mentioned before.
The situation that I am talking about happened one day when I was driving to my job. Every day I like to buy a coffee before getting to my job because it makes me feel like a kid receiving a candy. Also I love to watch the beautiful stray cats that are in the parking lot from the coffee store. There is a green area where they like to rest at the edge of the parking lot. That makes me smile a lot. But the best thing of all was when I saw a guy coming in front of me and going directly to his car. His car was a cute tesla. He was taking out some cans and ziplock bags with cat food. I stayed there just watching the beautiful moment. The guy opened all the cans and put the food in some small bowl and another part over some rocks. He also left some fresh water in bowls. He left plenty of food for them. That situation was so beautiful that makes me feel a lot of hope for everything.
But that was not the first time that I saw someone doing it. Almost a year ago , there was a homeless guy that used to spend time in that area. He liked to buy something to eat everyday from the coffee store and the people from the store sometimes gave hime something to drink for free. But the guy used that moment to ask for a cup of water too every day. The water is always free, so the guy put the water in smaller cups for the cats. Also he used to bring some dry food for cats. He bought them with the money he got from people. Then I don't know what happened because he was not seen there any more. It was a homeless that give something to the strays. Then it was a guy that obviously is in a good economic situation and like to go and feed the strays too.
Probably some of you don't understand but I hope you do. When everything seems to go bad and then something like this happens, my sadness goes away, my depression loses power, and my anxiety gets smaller.
I love to see things like that, and I use to think of it every time I need a bit of relief from my depression.
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