I am grateful that I can still be grateful for life …maybe not my own, but at least others’ lives… like Zeffie here (my husband named her and it makes me smile) I have been with intense feelings…grateful that I have slivers of hope that I will be stronger soon
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Hi hope yes I took some pics it's very soothing all the green 💛I'll pop pic on was going to post but I'll pop one on the ground was cracking last summer
I've put you a pic on but it's gone further down tech faults
Hi my lovely starlight I'm grateful your light makes my twinkle light up the universe without your lovely light I'd have no twinkle and I'm grateful I'm now a twinkly panda too 🙄🌟🤦lol your cats a relation of my pixiebob too for sure here's his pic lazy this morning sending big hugs from us you'll feel better soon you always do have faith in your strength as I do 💛🌟🐼🌹
Hello my starlight middle night here I'm tryner sleep now pixies asleep Hel be awake at 4 have look at gerrerds latest post he's on about how he overcame his depresshion 🤗💛🌟🌹
Hi Maggie's were in bed he's snug on the new throw v soft I've not had much sleep due to heavy rain he woke me at 4 then I was looking up UK weather and flood risks lol well no summer here what's it like for you I'm going to get my head down now so I'll catch up in the morning no doubt at 4 lol good night 🤗💕🌟🐼😹
No floods they put alerts on lot of UK often our town but it always just missed us anyway some across road had surface flood and went in caravans but was blocked drains and low air vents, the weather's unpredictable and a flash flood could hit anyone the weather belt got stuck some years back and it rained heavy for weeks, I'm going to complain to council about a big tree on my front I'm concerned about,
Sorry the flooding is close to you. We have quite clear skies here, with wind. We were flooded at half term 1998 and had to rent a house while ours was being rectified. I came back from a hospital visit to find all the neighbours outside in wellies and 12" of water in the house. The cats were traumatised, and so on top of trying to rescue some of our stuff, I then had to get the duvet washed as Coco had acted out his anxiety on it. I think they learned to use the bath after that but I probably got the cat lit upstairs. We soon moved, though, into a lovely old house and we were there for 18 months because at Christmas we had burst pipes, which meant more had to be done. Luckily the insurance covered all that and we had a lovely makeover as a result. I love your expression the weather belt got stuck. That's almost poetic!
I am grateful to HealthUnlocked to not feel alone with depression and anxiety. The support is helping so much. Thank you everyone I am grateful for YOU!
Here's pixiebob I'm grateful for him even tho he's a nightmare at times the good outweighs the bad as such is life and that's what keeps us going please try and foccus on the good 💕💕check his feet tail wrapped over lol I luv watching him sleep they end up in my face 😁 Dolphin14 Hidden
looks very much like joey and also starrlight's angel....all same coloring as you probably knew about starrlight's adorable one...what are the bad and good behaviors of your boy? mine has the same and is hilarious....emma is a sweetheart and fierce
Hi my boy is v playful plays his n seek he's v intelligent reads my mind too obedient when it suite he's also defiant like a naughty child attention seeking and has a fiesty side he likes to nip my ankles or pull my pyjama leg on morning in kitchen he's v needy loving devoted dog like goes for walks follows me allover, he's agressive to other cats and territorial he's a great catcher too v fast hunter he's a right hangul but Ihe keeps me on my toes and slim lol what your boys points 🤩
adorable.....nip ankles, cute....yes, mine joey, bites my arm at times, don't know why. he cuddles really well on my arm or against me at night. He brings things in his mouth and drops them, one time a whisk from kitchen
Haha I had a cat once brought my keys that my boyfriend posted my cat now is clawing the bed for attention he can't go out it's raining heavy too heavy for my liking needs to stop or be floods in places where it floods in UK it's forcast all over today where are you
Yes it's never stopped since I moved into new house I've jingsed the weather lol bought it for the garden leading into park so can walk pixie no chance of that 🙄🤦😍😹
What a beauty Zeffie is!! That's a great pic too! Looking at it I can almost feel her warmth and softness. I've had many cats but those days are gone. Still, I do adore them more than anything and they fascinate me to no end.
I'm grateful for your gratefulness posts that encourage me to think of the positive things even though they may be few they're still better than the negatives and it's a good thing to think about - positives. I'm also grateful that my PC problem doesn't prevent me from coming to HU like it does with most other sites. For some reason it goes into power save mode when I click on a lot of things. I have it set to never do that but it does anyway.
Yeah, it's a really weird problem. And I don't know when I'll be able to get it fixed. At least I can get to some of my most important sites, the poetry one, HU, my email and a couple of smaller blogs I go to.
AI - Yeah it does now that you mention it. yikes! I hope I can avoid AI.
How odd - while I was replying to your other comment to me I thought I would give you the link to the poetry site. Then I thought to myself "Don't be so presumptuous to think that he (or anyone for that matter) might want to read your poems. tsk tsk". LOL But I surely don't mind. This is the link to my page at the site and no spam I promise. :))
Was going to say too upset & overwhelmed to be grateful... then saw your cute 🐈. She's adorable. Here's my guys, who I can't wait to be home with. Clyde (fluffy) is attacking my husband's flip-flop & the other is Seneca.
adorable, looks exactly like female with same coloring as joey, grateful for emma and joey and rest and rain when it comes down, a fan....friends, I still have to reply to sweet people and replies, thank you for post...<3
I am grateful of still find good people around me. Grateful for having a son that I love so much. Grateful that sometimes I find the motivation that I lost long time ago to do whatever thing I need to do every day.🙂
It forecast heavy rain here today but it was just a few showers but I still enjoyed going out for a long swim and made my own sandwiches to take with me!
Hi cat we've just come to bed been working indoors and out in between rain he got fed up and tried to nip as I was on here but he was ok when I got back from bringing more stuff from mam's on shopping trolley lol he had gone to sleep I shouted so he'd go in garden whilst sunny he fell asleep outside then walked to see what I was doing when I sat up he's tired a lot as follows me and he gets us up at 4 lol so we're just off to sleep, your days sounds good I'm having sandwiches tomorror got some salad and tuna and cheese, hope you and baby are ok sorry I only saw your message about interview today I've been so tired I shouldn't click on alerts unless I can reply or I forgot or overlook stuff sometimes loads of like alerts come and I don't see a reply if I'm not foccus 🤗😹
Baby and I are great and we have made the best of the nice weather this morning and put a load of laundry in the machine and put it out on the line to dry taking advantage of the nice weather rather than putting it in the dryer to dry!
The washing felt absolutely gorgeous after putting it out on the line to dry in the nice weather!
We only use the dryer when it's bad weather and raining outside as I feel to do so otherwise is a waste of money!
I am grateful my father made the effort to see my kids. He drove 10 hours yesterday just to see them for the weekend. He had to leave my mother who is in hospice. But we will all get to face time with her and I know it will cheer her up. It's been too long since the kids have seen my parents. I want them to remember them the way I remember my grandparents.
(((((((((Hug))))))) I know what you mean. I remember my grandparents with a very special place in my heart for them. My father does not make any effort at all. That’s just him … sad.
Few days ago, I had a strong argument with my wife about alcohol.
She's said I had drunk and I said I had not.
Off course, I was lying to the person I love the most in the world. Yes, when I went in to my office, my body made me drink a few sip of whisky. Not a good one, a cheap blend of remains in barrels, 40 degrees.
What for ? I don't know . What was I trying to do then ? I don't know. I have once again, like I do each day, gone and drink a sip of this liquid death.
Why ? "I hate myself" would be too easy I reckon. I hate life who's taken off of me the only person who had a real interest in what I do, my dad. It (life) has left me gain more weight than before I had obesity surgery. I have a work and I go from an off sick leave to an other.
I am, and I truly think what I'm about to write an intelligent and a bit talented - mostly when it comes to writing - self made man.
And then ?
I have inflicted pain to my ex-wife because I went to the marvelous woman I am married to today. I have got every material thing anyone needs to be happy. And I spend most of my life destroying myself, trying to kill the "funny fat kid" I was years ago, who became the "funny fat adult" and is, today, at 47 years old, a dislike-able (not sure this word does exist) and self destroying dude.
I have gone and tried many things, from BDSM to self strangulation. I did not, and still do not, want to die. But not for the "good" reasons. Not because "life deserves it" or "after clouds comes the sun". Because I have accepted to take adult relevant responsibilities and loads. Nobody forced me to. I took the decision, hence I must assume.
I feel extremely confused and probably hard to understand, for me either, today. Because life has removed the only person I knew had an eye on me all the time. The man who, when he said I had some something right meant it, as well as he meant it when I had made "bullshit" (please will you pardon my words here).
Dad died on June 16th 2022 at 10.30. Since then, I do things because they need to be done. And also because other people's, my wife's, her daughter, my mum, my sister and my daughter, friend (with no "s", because this is the truth) and relatives need and rely on me to do what is needed.
Since this 16th June 2022 at 10.30, I feel like something is forever dead in myself. I feel like I do not do things for someone. I feel like I am supernumerary in the world. I am not anything to anyone, not even this so much hated "fat guy there". I have gone from who I was with dad, because of dad, in the eyes of dad, to nothing.
This is how I feel today, August 7th at 3.30 pm GMT.
Less than nothing. I am not sad, I am not lost. I am not at the bottom. I am nowhere.
My psychiatrist, my psychologist 1nd my wife all say "this is a remain of your kid life". This is as helpful as 1. A sugar in a can of coke (sorry, lack of imagination here) or a Ice cube in the north pole.
I am less than nothing. And I am sure the world may feel nothing if I went to disappear. A few people will be sad and, after 1 or 2 weeks, I wish them all to go back to their brilliant lives.
They'll be happy because they deserve it.
I do not.
I am sorry I am hijacking, in a probably poorly written English language, your topic. This is neither a "MayDay message" nor a beg for help. This is nothing but me, with an other sip of whisky in my body, with 4 new drawers handles on my wife's bed table.
Those are the words of a 47 years old kid who would love to get a text from dad saying "nice work" for those handles. I will not receive this message. He will not send it.
Once again, please apologize for what I am doing, this is an unfair way of replying to your pain and your issue.
I really hope you will accept to excuse me.
I send you loads of love from France, wish you, your family and friends to be and remain as happy and strong as life let them be.
Hey I’m really glad you wrote. We have to get these feelings out. That’s a healthy choice you made so good job not keeping it all bottled up. Thank you for trusting me with your sharing.
Why do you feel you don’t deserve to be happy? Because of the mistakes you’ve made? I do the same beating myself up for things that I know clearly don’t exist anymore.
Lately I’ve been having major mood swings. I’m trying but it doesn’t feel good enough but who decides that- me- so I - and you- deserve a chance as the more we are hard on ourselves the more difficulty we give to ourselves and others. So even if it feels wrong to, let’s help and treat ourselves good to the best of our ability today. And then attempt the same tomorrow… and so on… easier said than done but let’s just try. Let’s try smiling right now and believe things can get better.
I feel like I did not do enough to save dad, not enough to help my parents, not enough to help my wife's daughter.I think this is why I feel like I do not deserve what I have or should have.
One again, please excuse the topic hijacking, I "just" needed to write things and, thru the previous discussions we had you and me, you were "the one", not sure it can be explained with words.
Thank you, and thank you, also, for looking after me, seeing me as someone who can speak and be listened to !
What happened to your dad would have happened no matter what as it was his time.
I’m stuck in my head a lot especially these last few days. I am trying to be more of a friend towards myself and we have to challenge our thoughts. I do my best. You say you wish to have done more for people but I bet you gave what you could. Unless there is something specific you need to do for someone, let all those negative thoughts go because that is in past and doesn’t have to shadow your present moment which can be a gift.
Hang in there man!! So sorry for the loss of your dad and such an important soul to you. It’s easy to see from your words and pain. Let it out, cry it out, shout it out. Just be kind to yourself and know that the light of that guardian (dad) is still guiding and guarding. Prayers up to you!! 🙏🏻
This little friend likes the smell of shoes recently used and she likes to hug our feet when we just took out our shoes. I am grateful of that little friend that makes us happy with her hilarious ideas.😂
White cat smelling, bitting and hugging a tennis shoes recently used.
I am grateful for a good week visiting my grandkids. I am grateful for actually feeling a little bit happy and content-Really been working on reframing my thoughts/getting rid of negativity.
I am very grateful for being back at work this week-I truly get a boost from helping people. My students come back Wednesday and I'm excited to see them. Going to be a perfect year with no stress? Absolutely not. But I'm going to make it a good year
Sounds silly but when I was contemplating divorcing my husband of almost 30 years, my therapist encouraged me to look up a male friend I had in high school that I gave up, so to speak, when I started dating my husband.
I sent him a friend request first. Then I looked up what he had written in my yearbook and part of the message said, “make the right decision with _____” and my husband’s name was there. Talk about weird!!! When he excepted my friend request, a few weeks later I sent him a DM restating what he wrote in my yearbook and I said, “I didn’t make the right decision, in fact, I made thousands of wrong decisions”. I went on to say that I think I need to get a divorce and I had heard that he was divorced and was wondering if I could talk to him about his divorce experience.
He gave me his phone number and invited me over to talk and to see his business. I went and we talked effortlessly for 3.5 hours, it was like no time had passed since high school (33 years ago). It was at that time that I realized what was missing in my life. He never talked over me, cut me off mid sentence, or told me I was wrong for thinking a certain way,
Being treated this way by this man gave me the confidence boost that I needed to ultimately file for divorce. I will be forever grateful for him and his compassion to hear my story and give me tips on what to do and what not to do.
I have a grateful sign in my new apartment to remind me of him and to be grateful for other people like all of you that have helped me in my life changing journey.
I am grateful for the typical being blessed with waking up to fight another day....blessed with family and a few close friends that keep me grounded in life...grateful and humble for my coworkers who respected me enough to give me an award....even though I don't feel like I did anything extriodinary
I can identify with “fighting another day” I’m so tired of fighting I want to just be…and it’s hard to be grateful today. Congratulations on the award.
It isn't as easy for me as I make it seem. It has taken me a lifetime to get where i'm at today...Learning to not only make myself a priority in my life but to keep putting myself at the top of my priority list...has been and will always be difficult. As I posted on another post...if all you do today is survive the darkness.....that's ok....and as long as your "higher power" blesses you with life breath......you can conquer anything. I believe in you. I appreciate you
Mizzou, I really reeeaaaally needed to reread that today! I will survive my own darkness. I will try to believe I can conquer anything. I appreciate you too.
The darkness only lasts as long as you let it. Although I struggle...I try to keep a gratitude entry in my journal as well as a regular daily entry....and make sure that the gratitude part is something different every day...
Although I have a lot of anxiety and depression at times, I am still grateful for many of the positive things in my life, and the work that I have accomplished. I also am grateful for my retirement and time to be less busy and do more things that I enjoy.
We too are very grateful for the rain that we have had. I live in southwest Florida, and we are still recovering from hurricane Ian ironically, for the last two months we have hardly had any rain at all, and I have had to go out and water the plants two or three times a week, which is a real pain. However, over the last week we have had rain three or four times per week and that has made life a lot easier.
Sometimes we are privileged and have many things to be grateful for, but we lose track of that, and just think of them as ordinary day-to-day events. If you look at the lives of many people around the world, you’ll probably be very grateful for your lifestyle.
The pictures of the cats are adorable and they look so cute and relaxed and peaceful. We owned three dachshunds for about 20 years and we really loved them and they were like our children. (We all know that our own dog or cat is the cutest and smartest in the world.)
Wow thank you for the prayer I just now prayed for you, too. I hear you. That’s so rough but it will all work out I’m sure. That’s what I’m telling myself too. I often get all worked up over what turns out to be all on or manageable im just so tired in this life you know that sometimes I really want to go from life. I’m having trouble with my relationship with my husband and I have also made some decisions that are causing me to be in pain. But I think it will work out because I am believing and what we put out into the universe we will receive back.
I’ve dealt with it before I started getting depressed at age 15. I feel it now as I just got into a huge fight with my husband and I just feel like That’s It No More Life For Me Please ugh and then I feel guilty for it too.
Thanks remaining honest with self and not giving up sounds good.
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