Is anyone particularly upset about dealing with ‘cognitive defects’?

[UnicornKitty]

I have been struggling with cognitive defects throughout my life, such as lack of attention, lack of awareness of surroundings/directions, slow processing speed, forgetfulness, slower learning abilities & poor social skills. I am managing to keep my streams of income, and more feedback is good, however a lot of services seem indifferent about whether or not they have me working for them. I’ve been given negative feedback a few times about my lack of interactions and some people seem to have a problem with me not knowing what has been said/shown to me right away or for not remembering. When I’m in a situation where I’m unsure about something or someone points something out to me when I wanted to figure it out in my own time & way, it upsets me tremendously, to the point of feeling worthless, cognitively defective & sometimes to the point of suicidal feelings in which I contemplate the point of existing, why my parents had me, why I wasn’t euthanised or murdered & whether I am a waste of space. These feelings are somewhat temporary & occasional but they can be triggered in similar circumstances. Cognitive defects are the worst of issues I’ve dealt with as they may very well be permanent and they are ongoing and detrimental to my self-worth and happiness. I would like to figure out if these slip ups are typical & whether there is a way to feel better in these moments.

Thank you for reading!

[Shunneddune]

I also have cognitive issues...I'm slightly impaired for brain damage...sometimes I feel like a wounded animal..I can't remember half my conversation dealing with that and a mental illness is tough...but someone once told me some light is better than no light..so you are not alone and I am certain there are more of us

[Adlon57 in reply to Shunneddune]

I also have cognitive issues, I am terminally ill, with impaired brain damage, Epilepsy for over 50 years, told in 2021, "next seizure will probably be your last" I know the feeling "sometimes I feel like a wounded animal" halfway through a conversation, mind goes blank, an everyday word or expression, Doh! brain starts to panic, eventually do remember, but feel very embarrassed about it! Yes Shunneddune and UnicornKitty it is more common than you think👍

[UnicornKitty in reply to Adlon57]

Thank you for your input! I hope you feel better soon!

[UnicornKitty in reply to Shunneddune]

I’m sorry you are dealing with this. Hopefully we can find more people who deal with similar circumstances.

[CLB1125]

I understand completely! My skills have gotten worse over time. I blame my meds but who knows, you’ll never get a straight answer from a doctor. My husband gets furious with me because he says something and I have no idea what he says. He reads me the riot act and like you, I feel worthless and an idiot. He doesn’t get how much it hurts. I too wonder why I’m even alive. Hugs to you.

[UnicornKitty in reply to CLB1125]

I’m sorry you feel this way. I hope things get better for you and I know it hurts. I hope you can confide in someone who understands and empathises more.