manipulation delusions?

[Cloverrr]

Hi. I’m new here. It was suggested to me because I’ve been having trouble with a few friend groups and separating crisis from friendship I guess.

My family has a long history of emotional manipulation for a few generations, and I’m worried I’ve started falling into that as well. Like, manipulating people into worrying about my mental health. It caused a major rift in one friend group because I apparently had delusions about them not caring for me and ignoring me when that possibly wasn’t the case. We’ve sort of mended things but it feels awkward now.

Honestly, I’m not sure where to start or where to go from here. I’m in therapy. I already take meds for anxiety and depression. I have a stressful job I’m trying to leave because it messes with my sleep schedule which messes with my chronic illness/disability, which in turn also messes with my mental health and makes my anxiety and depression much worse. I’m just not sure what else to do. What I can do.

[Agamemnon2022]

Give yourself some credit for recognizing what might be a problem and being proactive in searching for a solution. I don't know how much sunlight and exercise you are getting but that might make a small difference. In my experience talking to friends about your depression & anxiety, unless they suffer from it as well, tends to frustrate them because they don't understand it. Joining a support group online can help. I would imagine that an in-person support group for depression might help. There is not one where I live but maybe you live in a bigger city. Also stay off of social media as much as possible. Develop other hobbies and interests, if you can.