How to make a home hospital? How to take care of myself? I'm really fragile rn

[Against_the_current]

So these job interviews ruined me. Im having panic attacks, ibs and acid reflux, ocd, starting to cry. My friend said i should be hospitalised but it's not an option. A doctor wrote an article about the situation in the mental hospitals here and instead of them making a positive change, they scolded him. Yesterday i noticed that when i take care of myself like take some more Clonasepam and Omeprazol and try to eat, felt better. Slept but woke up with panic, ocd about if i do sth random like washing my hands with cold water dad might stop my money, ibs, acid reflux and anxiety. I don't want to breakdown like yesterday

[SoporRose]

I'm sorry the interviews were so hard on you, but it's great that people want to interview you. I know I've missed some of your posts, so I'm sorry if I'm responding without enough information, but this sounds like positive development. So does your realization that when you take your meds and eat, you feel better.

I'm sure you are incredibly stressed and anxious and I don't mean to negate those feelings, but I am hopeful an employer will see that you have more to offer than you feel you do.